Things I've learned in the last 29 years

Things change. Sometimes for the better, worse or just different. Learning that it's just part of life will save you A LOT of stress and frustration.

Choosing to forgive isn't fun. But it's worth it. (Sometimes you have to forgive to keep a good person in your life)

Stomping on the "Faith" gas is MUCH better than stomping on "Fear" break!

If you have a problem with food, stay out of the kitchen!

I can't always trust my feelings, because I can feel 20 different ways about the same thing in 5 minutes.

I can NOT feel like doing the "right thing" but STILL CHOOSE to do it.

No human has all the answers. Not even mom.

Asparagus makes your pee stink!

We get a lot more CHOICES than we think we do. Choose wisely.

And for my most annoying habit, being anxious...I've clung to happy memories which ALWAYS calms my fidgety head, heart and soul.

I've learned that life's plan is better than my plan. And I want to see what the  plan ends up to be - maybe it's  more than I want my plan.

That's it. All my "smarts" for this life so far. I hope you find a little helpful diamond among the rumble that you can take with you!

That being kind doesn't always pay off, but it makes you feel good!

That love and relationships take a lot of work - a lot of patience - and a lot of compromise!

Huge buckets of love, over flowing, and splashing everywhere,

Kelly

A great read for all women into men or raising a boy into a man :)

 

I have to honestly say that this book is a MUST read for any woman who is married to a man, dating a man, wanting a man or has a little man she is raising of her own!

I’ve read other books on relationships, the different needs of men and women, but by far this little book is a power packed page turner!

Everything in the book is “real” stuff. She interviewed over a thousand guys and then gives you the results of her research…she asks stuff that your man probably won’t answer truthfully, even if you tried to ask. Ex: what exactly happened in their head after that mini skirt walked in front of them…and it’s based on statistics so you get an understanding of what the majority of men thought, and what the few minority had to say.

And I like to use President Reagan's line "trust but verify." So I read a few of the questions and results to my own man, and he agreed her research and conclusions. This alone is astonishing because my man usually doesn't agree with much. And what was surprising to me was how much I DIDN'T know about how men think, after all I've been married to one for 3 years, you'd think I would have picked some clues up by then--nope! But thanks to Mrs. Feldhahn, I'm getting clued in!

I know you’ll be blessed by this book as I have been, and the man (or men) in your life will thank you for “finally getting it” puns totally intended! Ha ha ha!

Happy Reading,

Kelly

My Favorite Things For July!!

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drum roll please......
Here I have the my June Favorite things...from nail polish and strips tp fav eye shadow palettes and phone!



www.iviscents.com

Girl Powder Lip Gloss:
http://girlpowder.myshopify.com/products/girl-powder-active-lip-gloss

Nailtini Cocktail Napkins - natural nail removers-
http://www.tinibeauty.com/products/the_mani_pedi_bar_cocktail_napkins.cfm



Leopard Nail Sticker Decal Polish Strips from Sephora and OPI:
http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P288816

Roller Girl Nail Polish Set from Urban Decay:http://www.urbandecay.com/rollergirl-nail-kit/301,default,pd.html?dwvar_301_c...


Urban Decay Naked Palette:
http://www.urbandecay.com/naked-palette-eyeshadow/245,default,pd.html



LipSurgeance Lip Stains:
http://tartecosmetics.com/tarte-item-lipsurgence-natural-matte-lip-tint

BEN NYE GLAM PALETTE ESP-954
(this palette is a beauty investments! But the size of the shadows is huge and you get 12 so that's only about $5.80 per shadow..and they are so amazingly pigmented and completely MATTE...no sparkle, shimmer, or frost at all!!) My sister and cousin both have these and said they don't even need to use any other eyeshadows!
I found some in the US here:
http://www.sillyfarm.com/store/index.php?p=product&id=4296&parent=728
for my UK lovies, you can get them here:
http://www.performerszone.com/acatalog/copy_of_Lips__Eyes__Cheeks.html

Benefit Cream Shadow in Birthday Suit:
http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P181807



Make-Up Forever Aqua Lip Liners in 8c (red), 16c (hot pink fuschia), 18c (coral), 17c (bright orange):

http://www.makeupforever.com/products/lips/lip-liner/aqua-lip.html

URBAN DECAY "SWEET AS CANDY" DEAL OF THE DAY ALERT!!!!

GET 25% off EVERYTHING AT URBAN DECAY

until July 10th,

with this FRIENDS & FAMILY code:

FFSUMMER11

click here for a "pretty saving" spree:

www.urbandecay.com

Enjoy,

LOVE KELLY!

How To Get Rid of Mosquito Bites!

It's that time of year again!

Rule #1: DON'T SHAVE A MOSQUITO BITE OFF!!!!
This was a total accident....I forgot to  be careful around my mosquito bite!

So here's some DIY Mosquito Bite Soothing Recipes:

(the nasty source....get your proboscis away from me!)

If you have ever been a "blood-buffet" for mosquitos, and didn't realize you had hung your OPEN for breakfast-lunch-dinner sign to all pesky mosquitos, and have some beyond itchy bites, here's some remedies!

HOME REMEDIES FOR MOSQUITO BITES:

(TRY ONE TRY ALL!)

WHAT I USED LAST NIGHT (when I was about to scratch my skin off!)
Mix a little paste of water and Baking Soda. Cover mosquito bite. Then I put a band-aid on top to make sure it didn't come off.
Not only did it stop the itching but it made the redness and swelling go away! No itching yet and it's been all night and I took a shower.

Other All Natural Mosquito Bite Remedies:
(it's at least worth a try!)


SALT-
simply moisten the area and rub salt on bite area
-people say it stops itching immediately-

ONION-
A freshly cut onion, quickly applied to a sting will prevent swelling and redness, and  stop the pain. Onions have anti-microbial properties- even good for blemishes. But it's the same reason why I don't eat raw onions that have been sitting out or at salad bars, anymore. Onions absorb bacteria and odors. People even cut onions and leave them out in rooms where people are sick, to naturally absorb all the virus.

WITCH HAZEL & WATER-
you can try using Witch Hazel instead of water to make the paste with Baking Soda.

APPLE CIDER VINEGAR-
Rub Apple Cider Vinegar directly onto bites.


TEA TREE OIL & ALOE VERA-
mix the two together and cover the bite area. The mixture will soothe bug bites, rashes and help prevent infection.

TOOTHPASTE-
but it only works if you use the right toothpaste...it should be one of the "white" paste looking types (not a clear gel kind). It will help remove the inflammation and itch.
*put a band-aid on top to make sure you don't get toothpaste "crumbs" everywhere.

I'm sure there are many more...but here's just a few to help you not scratch your skin raw and get a little relief from those pesky mosquitos!

the mosquito cafe, Kelly

Cloud-spiration

The other day I walking to the living room... and this sunset "treat-for-eyes" stopped me in my steps and made me think.  I started thinking about how the sunset doesn't look like this without the clouds. It's just plain and grey. BUT....with the clouds, the sun has something to soak up and reflect this beautiful color and light. And that is how our lives are too! "without the clouds in our life, we wouldn't have beautiful sunsets of inspiration and beauty!

No matter what is going on in your life:

Relationship problems, heartbreak, loss. financial troubles, feelings of hopelessness, loneliness, feeling out of contro,l family problems or whatever they case may be!  Be encouraged by these stories of "storm clouds" in people's lives, that have really been beautiful sunsets of opportunity just waiting for the sun to go down to make them shine.

A single and broke mama, who started making and selling sandwiches out of her home because she suffered from Agoraphobia...went from a former bank teller to cook at a Best Western Hotel...to the now famous, Paula Deen with a cooking empire. And she found her true love and soul mate along the way! Paula Deen suffered a lot of the things on the list.... but she didn't give up... she didn't say.."oh now I'm so alone!"...she didn't say now I don't have a husband...I can't make it. She didn't say...now I don't have a job, we're going to be homeless. NO! she put on her big girl pants... realized what she loved....COOKING... and found a way to start doing what she loved.  She USED WHAT SHE GOT: she had a kitchen.. she had skills... she had a desire... she had to do something because she only had $200 to her name.. she had fear of leaving her house...but that didn't stop her! Now she has become successful because of every STORM CLOUD in her life that made the sun shine a beautiful sunset of success! AND ALL THOSE CLOUDS made for the most beautiful sunset in her life every day!!!

SO today...rejoice for the clouds...they are bringing a beautiful sunset for you! Life has a beautiful sunset waiting to sparkle success in your life....let's just be thankful for the clouds that are going to make our sunset amazing!!! From your friend with cloudiness....but waiting for them to make my sunsets beautiful, your Kelly please share this with anyone that needs to hear this (I encourage you to share it on facebook and twitter...because people always ask if it's ok...it's more than OK...I want to help change hearts...so share away!)

Emotions!

 

Emotions are our own, not anybody else's! (I imagine this is what our emotions look like, lots of different intensities and shades--I have no scientific evidence ha ha ha!) We all have emotions and I'm sure you are already aware of them. Our emotions are what go bananas when we don't get our "way," think that we have been cheated or short-changed in some way, are hurt, feel lonely, surge with jealousy and basically are how we react to most things in life.

Here's the bombshell. These "emotions" can be harnessed. You don't have to fly off the handle when someone has said something hurtful about or to you. You CAN and also HAVE, the freedom to CHOOSE how you will respond. I spent MANY years, blaming others for how I "had" to respond. I would blame friends who did something hurtful to me--as WHY I had to "get them back" or plot ways to hurt them just as they had done to me. This is a very emotionally based way to live. And it's also very exhausting, depressing, lonely and a scared way to live your life. Believe me, "emotionally" responding to every little thing and allowing your emotions to run wild at any given moment will leave you feeling worse than the meanest person you've ever met!

So what do we do with raging emotions?  How we should respond when we are hurt? Rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed!  I know it may be hard at first but with practice and determination anything is possible.  If anything at least you will be less frequent with your rages! Clothes yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.   You will be so much more happier and so much more productive everyday! We are all FREE to choose how we will respond! Respond with a thankful heart that you are alive and have a chance to do something great for yourself and others! Respond to others with compassion, kindness, love and forgiveness. You will see your relationships will grow stronger and you will grow happier.

So next time you are faced with a jerky person, difficult circumstances or just life not working out as you had planned...stop and think for a minute. Sometimes I have to tell myself, "Kelly, just stop it. Let's put our raging emotions on hold for a minute and ask what response be the best and make me a good person and stronger and realizing being negative never helps anything!?" That's a "tune" changer if I ever heard one! Ha ha ha! It changes my whiney, hurt, mad, "why me" type of emotional response EVERY TIME. And at the end of the day, I'm ALWAYS glad when I choose positivity over negativity!  I feel better, sleep better and enjoy peace rather than being tortured by my own wild emotions. You too can become an emotional wrangler if you give it a true shot! Emotions are part of who we are, but they should never be allowed to run totally wild. I'm done with the days that my emotions ruled me, and I'm learning more everyday how I can better wrangle them into submission! Remember that emotions ALWAYS need some sort of harness to head in the right direction. And the best harness is positivity! Huge love, KELLY

A crafting how to

DIY FLOWER BALL!

I love Do-It-Yourself craft projects...
so it's time to fire up your hot glue guns...
hunt down some fake flowers...
and grab some styrofoam balls...because we're gonna make some romantic fantastic flower ball decorations to bring some girly, beauty to your desk, dresser, bathroom or bookshelf!
These are adorable in little girls rooms and in big girls rooms...mine lives on my dresser!

WHAT YOU NEED:

1. Styrofoam Ball

(any size you want)

 You can get these at any craft store.

2. Hot Glue Gun & Lots of Glue Sticks

I got my Zebra Print Glue Gun at Michaels Crafts by ArtMinds for like $4.99

 3. Fake Flowers

(you can use a fun mixture of colors like these)

or big Peonies like these...

or you can just get a bunch of white roses like the one I have!

INSTRUCTIONS:

1. Pull off all the flower blossom from the stem

-they just pop off when you pull on them-

so you are left with a bunch of green stems that look like this.

2. Start gluing the flowers to the styrofoam ball until they cover the whole ball...
you can glue them in a circle line around the ball or just start gluing them next to each other...as long as they cover the styrofoam it doesn't matter which way you start to glue them!be careful not to burn your valuable fingertips!

AND VOILA...

your very own orb of floral-girly-ness!

smokin' glue guns...Please share if you do this project!  I would love to see - Kelly

Today is my anniversary!

My husband and I have been together 3 years and it's just crazy to think that.  I will admit on other days it feels like we were together for 20 years!  He is my best friend, lover, and yes we fight here and there...but at the end of the day we realize how important we are to each other.

It's really made me grow up and realize relationships take sacrifice, dedication, patience, understanding, forgiveness, caring, communication, and did I mention patience and forgiveness?  If you love someone you must forgive.  If you love someone you need to listen and hear them out, before you just argue your point.  If you love someone you must sacrifice and work as a unit.

Like any couple we have had our ups and downs but the last year and a half we have been soaring high.  I think it's because we both turned 29 this year, and we also realize how lonely our lives would be with out each other.  I think our biggest issue was my past life in the porn industry, and he has now accepted it.  Now that isn't an issue!  Thank goodness!

I don't know what he has planned today, but whatever it is I will love it.  Due to I know he will put his heart into it.  I don't need fancy shmancy gifts or diamonds.  I have never been that girl.  As long as I have him by my side I'm truly happy.  My life is brighter and more stable, because of him.  Now when I lay in bed at night I know I only have to reach a few inches and I have him there.  I know when I cry or upset I have him there to lean on.

I love my husband even more on this special day..and as I write this..I'm tearing up. GRR I'm such a girl! lol But I hope everyone has a great weekend! All my love and hope for each and every one of you - Kelly

Why I'm Not Perfect!

I am so far from perfect...it's funny sometimes!

I've been married 2 times...

I have had to have lots of surgeries to fix me to look better...

and I am no where near the life I had imagined for myself when I was young!

ha ha ha ha

Perfection isn't real...it pretty much doesn't exist, except in how we envision things to be in our mind.

My sister once told me that my imagination is so great...nothing will live up to how great I imagined it!

ha ha ha ha ha

and if you struggle with perfection...like I do...it can be soooo frustrating!

I always worry that I didn't make the perfect decision, buy the perfect "whatever" at the lowest price...

I have realized that the most beautiful things in life are the ones with imperfections...

the most wonderful people are the ones that are far from perfect...

My mother knew that every imperfection and imperfect thing that happens to us...can be the very thing that makes us the most beautiful.

Just like a pearl...it's the little imperfection that gets turned into something beautiful.

I remember someone unkind, commented how I wasn't pretty enough or I was to skinny...and one of my friends told me, "yeah, but if they were so happy with themselves why would they go out of their way to pick on you?!  There is probably jealousy and envy behind those statements."
My life may be far from perfect...things that have happened in my life have looked far from perfect...but each one...has turned into the most perfect, imperfect thing.

I love being imperfect:

•  I love the fact that I'm short (I always wanted to be tall, but if I was tall I'd want to be short)


• I love that my body isn't perfect..and I don't care if I get cellulite...I'm still gonna wear a bathing suit out!


• I love that my life has been more exciting because of how "imperfect" it's been...married two times...porn...etc (ha ha ha)...


• I've never had the perfect life I thought...I had...and that's okay I wouldn't change the life I have now for anything.  The people I have in my life I wouldn't change for anything


• I love that I have a step-daughter!  Rather than adopting one.  She is my little darling!


• I love the fact that no matter how imperfect I am - my husband still loves all of me

• I love that no matter what comes at me that isn't perfect...I know my mom is saying...you life is like a beautiful mosaic of all different colors...and no matter what you keep adding more beauty to it, through all these different little pieces of broken-ness... a one colored perfect piece would be very boring...


• I could keep going but this will turn from a blog to a novel! ha ha ha

If you feel like your life, relationship, family, body, career...
is imperfect....LISTEN TO ME
YOU ARE WONDERFUL...
YOUR LIFE IS EXCITING AND INTERESTING this way...
LET GO OF PERFECTION!!! AND embrace the beauty of imperfectness!
ONCE YOU DO - YOU WILL BE HAPPIER!!

We don't have to worry about our life not being how we want....it's work in progress...and each thing that goes "wrong"..could be the very piece that will guide us to where we're supposed to be!
incredibly imperfect...your friend Kelly!

Proud to be Transsexual

You know how many people make the good and the bad lists.  I am going to do this for the reasons I have always come to the conclusion why I am glad I'm a transsexual.  See if you can come up with your own lists.  There is of course bad reasons, but the good outweighs it for me.  I find many focus too much on the negativity, and like playing the victim card.  I have never been one of those types and don't ever plan on being that way.  Playing the victim only weakens you, and turns people away from you.  There's a point when people just don't feel sorry for you anymore.  It makes them want to turn against you!  Nor does it inspire anyone!!  I'm a transsexual and I get annoyed with those people and the transsexuals who do that crap!

I have never liked pity either.  I hate when people say "Wow, your life must of been so hard", "I'm sorry", "It must be hard being like you", and so on.  Umm NO not really!  GRRR!!

1) I transitioned young (age 12) it was a big decision to make.  It challenged my maturity, self-awareness, confidence, and the people around me.  I am thankful for this experience.  It's made me more thankful for my family who supported me, the friends who stood behind me, challenged me to change people's minds, and gave me a will to be me.

I truly believe if I hadn't of transitioned at the age I did.  I would of been a shell of a person.  Unhappy, mad at the world, and held fear inside my very being.

I also believe if I had been born a genetic female.  I wouldn't have the wisdom, confidence, or backbone I gained from being a transsexual.  I probably would not think outside the box like I do now. I might be one of the people who didn't understand minorities or people who are different.  I may be a brain dead wannabe like so many are today.

2) I'm happy to be different than others. Otherwise I would take this life, my friends, and normalcy for granted. I cherish the normal life I've been able to live.  I cherish the friends I've made, the family who stands beside me and accepts me, and the understanding and wisdom of myself and things around me.  Something I wouldn't of had otherwise.

3) It challenged my confidence giving me a backbone.  A backbone that has pushed me to fight for my community.  Go to high school as a girl, when kids can be the meanest.  My backbone has saved my life and inspired others.

4) It showed me true cruelty, and true kindness.  Something many don't see till they are older.

5) It showed me who my true alliances were and the love of a family.

6) It's given me an understanding of both sexes.

7) It's tested my patience, making me a lot harder to blow a gasket.

8) It's made me work harder for my looks, and be thankful for them when I achieved them. (many take for granted)

9) It's taught me empathy, compassion, and understanding. Something many don't have, nor will they ever have.

10) Last but not least, it's taught me to be thankful for the freedom I have to be me.  We take freedom for granted.

Let the tears fall!

I was eating lunch today...and even as my friend was making a joke that made me laugh...a  song came on by Bette Midler...and "safely hidden" from my friend on the phone...tears slipped down my face, as I listened to the song ...and I remember being not even in my teen years, and her saying this is our song and whenever you hear it think of your mommy...my heart just hurt. And I wanted to go back to that time again...I remember shopping with my mom that day for school clothes (the first year I lived as a girl age 12)....

Last night, I checked my phone to see a text from my sister about my mom...and
this song...in combination with some other things going on in my life...made tears fall like rain...but hopefully it washed my heart a little...

Something my momma used to say when she was alive...

"Those who sow (work) in tears..shall reap (take in, receive) in joy!"...this was like the biggest hug to my spirit...

We get these thoughts that try to discourage us...break our spirit...steal our joy....

and we MUST...must....be diligent and courageous in our thinking...not letting these pains and hurts of life...try to stop us...and kidnap our joy...

it never fails...as soon as you start working hard for something..going after your dream...trying to quit a bad habit...repairing an emotional wound....
it seems as if a sign that says "please attack me...make this harder than it is"...comes on...and next thing you know your doubting your ability and your strength...

I cried today a lot....and as no one answered their phone to talk with my "lonely" little self...I had no options left but to listen to a cd....I put in a cd of mine....and the voice boomed through the speakers right to my heart....and made me feel hope again..it was like it was saying...
NEVER GIVE UP!!!! Never let your "down" thoughts keep you down....

if you are hurting.....just know every tear is precious....and it is most definitely watering the beautiful flowers of blessings that are just waiting to spring up!!!

huge, huge love from my heart to you......and please feel the hug I'm sending too....I know I could always use an extra "hug though"......

Your Friend, Kelly

Expensive Cosmetics Made Cheap!

Face Primer -

In a container mix 3 teaspoons of Aloe Vera, 3 teaspoons of moisturizer then MIX IT - then add some of your choice of foundation till it's pigmented... DONE - you have yourself a great primer before you put on your concealer/foundation

Eyeshadow Primer -

In a container mix 1 part body butter and 1 part concealer of your choice...mix well with a toothpick!  Abracadabra a great Eyeshadow primer!

Lip Gloss -

There are two ways to make lip gloss!

1)  In a container mix vaseline and the eyeshadow/blush flakes of your choice till it gets the pigment you want... You only use the flakes from when your brush it...

2) Melt some of your fav lipstick that are leftover and mix it with some vaseline...BAM lipgloss!

 

Cream Eyeshadow -

In a container mix face moisturizer and the eyeshadow flakes of your choice and mix mix mix - wallah cream eyeshadow!

Eye Make Up Remover -

Take a container and using 50/50 of olive oil and witch hazel ( I like using more witch hazel than olive oil) shake it - then take a cotton ball and wash that eyeshadow off girls!

Make-up/eye make-up Remover -

This can wash off all your make up!  Take 3 teaspoons of vaseline - 3 teaspoons of aloe vera - 4 drops of lavender oil MIX MIX MIX - and then take a napkin/kleenex/papertowel and dip it in the mix and get that MAKE UP OFF!!

 

I hope this helps - I will post more make up tips later!!  Your Friend, Kelly

 

My Resolutions!

 

So a few things that I am changing in my life...I am 28 now..I know that's like 80 in tranny years!  Shut UP!!  But I realize as I get older I need to take better care of my body and start working out... ( I NEVER WORKED OUT - TILL NOW!). I mean I took 12 years of dance and 8 years of gymnastics, but that was more a passion.   It didn't feel like I was working OUT!

I go to the gym now quite regularly, and still feel like a hamster on atreadmill.  BUT I'm doing it! I still do my dance work out, but I have added stairs, treadmill, and the ball to my work out routine! I want to keep my tummy toned and I don't want to be SAGGY..so I know this is my only choice!

Now I was the girl that could eat anything and I mean anything unhealthy!  I loved unhealthy food (still do) but I have also realized I have to change my diet. Then have just ONE cheat day a week! Instead of every day! LMAO!!  I know with age comes that "POT BELLY" and I don't want it! I look at my sister who is 34 and four years ago she was skinny and didn't have a double chin, and now she has a double chin and thicker..(not fat) just has a ("pot belly") and I don't want that to happen to me! So guys I'm changing my diet! I have already started!  I have been doing really well!  My hubby is a health nut so he has been so happy with my choice.  WE get in less petty arguments about food intake!

On top of that I started taking vitamins again!  You don't always get what you need out of food intake, so taking vitamins definitely helps! I'm currently taking Vitamins E, D, C, b12, collagen, St. John's wort, and fish oil and I am already feeling more energetic and healthier!

I'm gonna try my damnedest to try to maintain this to make it a HABIT!

My second resolution is writing in my blog everyday! Which so far I have.. www.secretkelly.com I have even written three blog entries in one day!  I have been lazy and just let it sit there, and got a lot of complaints from fans.  I don't like disappointing my fans, so I am going to change that!

I am going to try to stay positive and productive and HEALTHY with lots of exercise! If you guys would like to join me let me know! Or type your own resolution in below!! And try to stick to it!

Your friend, Kelly

 

P.S. So for snacks I have implemented Jamba Juice into my regimen - I love the Strawberry Swirl! My husband likes the wheat grass he says it's very good for you! He made me drink it with him..let me tell you it tastes how it's supposed to lol! If you ever been outside while someone is mowing their yawn, and the taste gets in your mouth...thats exactly what it tastes like! Absolutely disgusting..NEVER AGAIN! I will stick to smoothies!

A video of him drinking this crap!

http://www.twitvid.com/QQG9U

Health Kick!

Hey guys, so I am on a new health kick.  I am 28 now getting closer to the 30 mark!  On April 19th, I turn 29 WOWEEEEE!!  Time flys by!!!!!!!!!!  Anyhoo I decided if I want to maintain my body and my looks I better start eating healthy, taking vitamins, and working out.

I have never really worked out a day in my life...I don't consider gym class in school "WORKING OUT"....and when I danced and did tumbling that was a passion for me and I never felt like I was working out.

When I go to the gym with my husband I look at all these people that look like they are on hamster wheels ie the treadmill!  I stick to dancing in the studio, the ball (for abs), and the stair machine for my legs and ass.  However in my opinion my dance routine keeps me sweating and working the hardest.  I am going to make it a priority to at least work out 3 times a week..FRIENDS you will have to help me with this!  My husband works out 4 to 5 times a week, and he is good at kicking my butt in line.  Maybe you guys want to start working out too?  We can help each other!  hee hee for us junk food/couch potatoes!!  Trust me I can EAT...I may not look like it, but I pack it away!  I've always said I'm a fat girl trapped in a skinny girls body!

I have changed a lot of my diet too!  I mean I didn't go nazi on my diet, but I did change it!  Eating more raw vegetables and fruit, less sugars, less can items, and more salads and chicken. Before I was eating a lot of unhealthy fatty meals!! I also am cutting pop out of my diet to only once a day or when I need an extra KICK of energy, until I finish off the pack I have in the fridge I had already bought...then it will be only on special occasions when we go out to a dinner possibly.  I usually order Arnold Palmers though or some foo foo drink lol

With the changing of my diet I have also decided to enhance myself with vitamins!  Which it's great for every trans-female to do if they are taking hormones.  In general though a lot of the food we eat wont give us the vitamin intake we really need, so taking vitamins will ensure we do!  I will give you a list of what I take and was told to take by my old hormone doctor - Dr. Odea.  I know I have mentioned his name plenty in my other blogs and on Secret Kelly Radio!  I love this guy! If I was still going to California regularly I would still be using him!

I just bought a bunch of new vitamins last night at Walgreen's for all this it came to about $40.00 and it was buy one get one free how cool is that! By the way I LOVE WALGREEN'S...it's one of my favorite stores!



Now I will tell what I take and what each one does :)

Vitamins:

Collagen - take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. This will help with your skin, hair, nails, anti-aging, and produce a very soft look for you.

Fish oil 1200 mg -  Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. Omega-3 fatty acids will help support a healthy heart. Omega-3 fatty acids also help maintain triglyceride levels already in the normal range. It can prevent aging, cancer, depression, bi-polar syndrome and chrone's disease.

Calcium 1200 mg -  Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. I think you know this is for your bone health! You don't want a hunch back when you are older do you?

Cranberry Vitamin - Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. This is for your cholesterol and helps keep infections and illnesses away. It purifies and lines your urine stream to keep you healthy! The hormones raise your cholesterol we want to keep it down!

St. John's Wort Vitamin - Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. Unless you feel drowsy take it only at night. This will help anxiety and depression. This will help prevent the mood swings and keep you sane and happy. It will promote a positive ATTITUDE!!

Vitamin D - Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. This will help keep your immune system regular, keep your brain and blood flow working well, and maintaining a healthy body weight.

OOPS I NEED TO ADD THAT I AM ALSO TAKING THE B12 VITAMIN - ONE IN THE MORNING AND ONE IN THE EVENING FOR BETTER BRAIN FUNCTION AND ENERGY...MY HORMONES AT TIMES MAKE ME SO TIRED!  THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN ANY ENERGY DRINK AND LETS NOT FORGET HEALTHIER! THOSE ENERGY DRINKS ARE NOT GOOD FOR YOU...GATORADE AND VITAMIN WATER AREN'T EITHER IT'S BASICALLY KOOLAIDE ie SUGAR WATER!

OKAY GOT TO SCOOTALADOO - EAT THEN GYM :) I'M GONNA WORK OUT HARD TODAY!

LOVE YOU GUYS!!  Your friend, KELLY :) (Have a Happy St. Patty's Day - If your not wearing green..I'll be PINCHING!!!)

How To Deal With Rude People!!

I think everyone at some point in their day or week, comes across the path of at least one person who is rude to you.

I encountered a few people in my life that were extra-rude! I first thought, maybe they are just having a bad day, maybe they can't help that they lack people skills and kindness. Then as I continued to speak to rude person #1, I realized, "I think they are just rude!" Then I came across rude person #2, and again I was amazed at their rudeness! How can these people go though life mowing people over with their horrible attitudes and words?

This is what I've realized when I "get" to come in contact with these "rude-y's"...

#1. Don't let them effect you with their rudeness ~ I try to never react with what I feel like dishing out to them...that would make me just as awful as them.
To the rude lady at the cupcake shop who rudely tried to make me feel like an idiot..to which I could have rudely replied, "You are one of the rudest business people I've ever dealt with...I could go on twitter/youtube/facebook and have thousands of people hear about how stinkin' rude you are and that NO ONE should ever buy your stupid cupcakes. You have the worst people skills and HOW DARE YOU SPEAK TO anyone, let alone a potential customer that way you depressing little woman! I don't want anyone to ever have to deal with you or your pretentious little cupcake bakery!" BUT I DIDN'T SAY ANY  OF THAT! (i just had to think of all the awful things I COULD have said, but I don't even naturally think like that! ha ha ha)
Instead I said, "OK, sounds like this won't work out. Maybe I'll try back when you have all your ordering figured out. Have a great day, bye!"

#2. Never let these rudey ones put a damper on your happiness ~ Don't let them steal your happiness, that only lets them win with the "power of their rudeness"! The best revenge is being extra happy and not-effected!

#3. Overpower the rudeness ~ that saying kill em' with kindness is my favorite way of dealing with rude people. Nothing makes a "rudey" feel worse than when you are nice to them...it takes the angry wind, right out of their sails!

#4. People that are rude have no clue what graciousness is ~ Graciousness is marked by kindness, sympathy, and unaffected politeness (according to the dictionary) and rude people are the complete opposite - Ungraciousness is an offensive lack of good manners. We want nothing to do with that.

#5.  Feel sorry for rude people ~ Yes, that's right, feel sorry for them, this is a horrible "disease of rudeness" that they have. I bet they have misery and anger in their lives at every turn. That's why it spills out of them like an overflowing bathtub...you get filled up on what's in the inside and it spills out.

#6. Spill some kindess ~ just like the "rudey's" are full of anger and misery (their bathtubs are overflowing)......make sure you fill yourself with kindness, so that kindness spills out on everyone that comes in your path, from a waitress to your grandma, to a stranger that you hold the door open for, or let go in front of you in line when you see they only have a few items and you have a whole cart full.

Rudeness only has an effect if we let it. Are there rude people in the world? Yes. Are they almost everywhere we go? Yes. Do we have to be victim to their rudeness? NO! We can choose to put up our mirror of "rude-reflection"...not only will it bounce back the rudeness that they just spit out at us...so that our kindness will show them how "rude-iculous" they were, but also, that we WILL NOT LET IT EFFECT US or our DAY! And even if they still keep on keepin' on with their rude ways.....we can rejoice that we are not like that, and get away from them as fast as we can!

May you be a light of sparkling kindness wherever you go today...leave a path of people who feel better for having come into your presence. A big smile, a nice "thanks you so much!", and a kind, "have a great day!"...can totally bring a smile to someone's day.
A compliment, a kind smile, and something nice or encouraging...will always make someone's day better!

Let's be a huge revolution of "happy-day-maker's" where ever we go today...and every day!

typed with love from someone who battled a few "rudeys" all day...and not a one of them won! ha ha ha

huge love and super big smile...Your Kelly!

Moments in life........

We all have days that we want this day to end. Whether your heart is breaking, your depressed, sad, hurt...frustrated or overwhelmed....believe me, I understand.

I am human. I am real. I cry. I get sad....I want you to know I go through all the things you do and you are going through!

Last night I definitely washed my heart with tears.  And as I cried, I could feel my heart trying to mend itself....and as more tears fell...and my nose got stuffed up....I felt all of me melt.

Sometimes things in our lives feel so far from perfect. So imperfect, that our hearts long for things to be so right. We may feel like our lives are far away from the “perfect lives” we see on tv or in movies. We may be unhappy with our looks. With decisions we made and wish we could take back. Whatever the case may be.

I’m here to to say: It’s ok, we are real, our feelings are real. That’s what makes us beautiful. Real is beautiful.

I want you to know that if tears have been running down your face....”tears are rain for your heart that just bring out rainbows and flowers in your soul”...Even though you may have tears at night, you can dance and sing in the morning with a new day, filled with new hope....new smiles....new songs of happiness!

It's healthy to cry, argue, scream, and vent. It gets your feelings out and sometimes you just need it to feel release and relief.
When you have a moment:

love yourself- be kind, and tell yourself it’s ok....
rest- sleep restores and refreshes our mind to deal with all the “problems” in our lives
give yourself permission to be imperfect- some of the most amazing people I’ve ever known were ones that had lives that were FAR from perfect
if tears are falling- let them fall, let your mascara get all messed up (ha ha ha)...release all that your heart is full with...
“talk in a can”- talk with can’s....”I can be happy”, “I can get through this”, I can be happy happy no matter how imperfect my life is”. “I can do it!!!!”

I have been in many moments that I thought I couldn’t take much more of...and in all those moments I said, “these things may seem too BIG for me, TOO much to handle, I can’t take anymore!”...
STOP....take a deep breath...say, “I’m ok....I am much stronger than I think. I can go through anything...and just like that broken shattered mirror that shines are sparkled more and more because of all it’s brokeness... we will shine and sparkle more!”

Look and remember who you love and care about. Find things to be grateful for dears. Don't think you are the only one with issues or fight or scream! We all have those moments!! It is nothing to be ashamed of my darlings.
I will be that expert sailor, with all kinds of stories of awful storms I’ve been through...but you know what...just like an old wise sailor....I will be able to go through any storm and steer my little “life” boat though anything because I’ve navigated through some serious “troubled storms in my life!”

So the next time you are feeling down.....know that it’s ok...I’ve been there with you....I was just there last night!  ha ha ha ha

And as my gramma says: “Any day your above ground is a good day!”

Huge love my precious hearts.....I hope you can feel the hug I’m sending to your heart right now!
I feel down a lot at times because of things, but I look around and remember the loved ones I have right now.
How lucky I am to have a husband, a beautiful step-daughter, and friends and fans who support me through all.

I'm sleepy.......
huge love....again