WEIRD!

to me….
weird is a compliment
I’d rather be different and “strangely out of place”
than so “common” that I would blend in
wherever I was…..

we are all sensitive (even big tough guys are usually the most sensitive, they get all offended easily, because they got “hurt”, AKA disrespected), serious, talkative, quiet, calm, excited, happy, then sad, cheery then not….
There have been moments in my life that were sad and if it weren’t for me being raised in a silly, “dancing in the kitchen”, singing, laughing, talking in random accents (my mom was the queen of the british accent…even my Nana would tell us the best stories in accents)…I don’t know if I would’ve made it through some of the crappy moments that I did….My great gramma always said I reminded her of one of her many sisters because I’m always smiling and laughing…my grammy always told me to dance whenever I heard music…and I DO!  It keeps me happy!

I wish more people knew how to have fun and enjoy it!  Not be afraid to be zaney or goofy!

Please spread some laughter and smiles…and be weird and silly for me, if not for you! ha ha ha
Enjoy some silly-weirdsmobile (oldy but goodie) moments with yours truly….K-dizzle

My Favorite Things For July!!

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drum roll please......
Here I have the my June Favorite things...from nail polish and strips tp fav eye shadow palettes and phone!



www.iviscents.com

Girl Powder Lip Gloss:
http://girlpowder.myshopify.com/products/girl-powder-active-lip-gloss

Nailtini Cocktail Napkins - natural nail removers-
http://www.tinibeauty.com/products/the_mani_pedi_bar_cocktail_napkins.cfm



Leopard Nail Sticker Decal Polish Strips from Sephora and OPI:
http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P288816

Roller Girl Nail Polish Set from Urban Decay:http://www.urbandecay.com/rollergirl-nail-kit/301,default,pd.html?dwvar_301_c...


Urban Decay Naked Palette:
http://www.urbandecay.com/naked-palette-eyeshadow/245,default,pd.html



LipSurgeance Lip Stains:
http://tartecosmetics.com/tarte-item-lipsurgence-natural-matte-lip-tint

BEN NYE GLAM PALETTE ESP-954
(this palette is a beauty investments! But the size of the shadows is huge and you get 12 so that's only about $5.80 per shadow..and they are so amazingly pigmented and completely MATTE...no sparkle, shimmer, or frost at all!!) My sister and cousin both have these and said they don't even need to use any other eyeshadows!
I found some in the US here:
http://www.sillyfarm.com/store/index.php?p=product&id=4296&parent=728
for my UK lovies, you can get them here:
http://www.performerszone.com/acatalog/copy_of_Lips__Eyes__Cheeks.html

Benefit Cream Shadow in Birthday Suit:
http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P181807



Make-Up Forever Aqua Lip Liners in 8c (red), 16c (hot pink fuschia), 18c (coral), 17c (bright orange):

http://www.makeupforever.com/products/lips/lip-liner/aqua-lip.html

URBAN DECAY "SWEET AS CANDY" DEAL OF THE DAY ALERT!!!!

GET 25% off EVERYTHING AT URBAN DECAY

until July 10th,

with this FRIENDS & FAMILY code:

FFSUMMER11

click here for a "pretty saving" spree:

www.urbandecay.com

Enjoy,

LOVE KELLY!

How To Get Rid of Mosquito Bites!

It's that time of year again!

Rule #1: DON'T SHAVE A MOSQUITO BITE OFF!!!!
This was a total accident....I forgot to  be careful around my mosquito bite!

So here's some DIY Mosquito Bite Soothing Recipes:

(the nasty source....get your proboscis away from me!)

If you have ever been a "blood-buffet" for mosquitos, and didn't realize you had hung your OPEN for breakfast-lunch-dinner sign to all pesky mosquitos, and have some beyond itchy bites, here's some remedies!

HOME REMEDIES FOR MOSQUITO BITES:

(TRY ONE TRY ALL!)

WHAT I USED LAST NIGHT (when I was about to scratch my skin off!)
Mix a little paste of water and Baking Soda. Cover mosquito bite. Then I put a band-aid on top to make sure it didn't come off.
Not only did it stop the itching but it made the redness and swelling go away! No itching yet and it's been all night and I took a shower.

Other All Natural Mosquito Bite Remedies:
(it's at least worth a try!)


SALT-
simply moisten the area and rub salt on bite area
-people say it stops itching immediately-

ONION-
A freshly cut onion, quickly applied to a sting will prevent swelling and redness, and  stop the pain. Onions have anti-microbial properties- even good for blemishes. But it's the same reason why I don't eat raw onions that have been sitting out or at salad bars, anymore. Onions absorb bacteria and odors. People even cut onions and leave them out in rooms where people are sick, to naturally absorb all the virus.

WITCH HAZEL & WATER-
you can try using Witch Hazel instead of water to make the paste with Baking Soda.

APPLE CIDER VINEGAR-
Rub Apple Cider Vinegar directly onto bites.


TEA TREE OIL & ALOE VERA-
mix the two together and cover the bite area. The mixture will soothe bug bites, rashes and help prevent infection.

TOOTHPASTE-
but it only works if you use the right toothpaste...it should be one of the "white" paste looking types (not a clear gel kind). It will help remove the inflammation and itch.
*put a band-aid on top to make sure you don't get toothpaste "crumbs" everywhere.

I'm sure there are many more...but here's just a few to help you not scratch your skin raw and get a little relief from those pesky mosquitos!

the mosquito cafe, Kelly

Emotions!

 

Emotions are our own, not anybody else's! (I imagine this is what our emotions look like, lots of different intensities and shades--I have no scientific evidence ha ha ha!) We all have emotions and I'm sure you are already aware of them. Our emotions are what go bananas when we don't get our "way," think that we have been cheated or short-changed in some way, are hurt, feel lonely, surge with jealousy and basically are how we react to most things in life.

Here's the bombshell. These "emotions" can be harnessed. You don't have to fly off the handle when someone has said something hurtful about or to you. You CAN and also HAVE, the freedom to CHOOSE how you will respond. I spent MANY years, blaming others for how I "had" to respond. I would blame friends who did something hurtful to me--as WHY I had to "get them back" or plot ways to hurt them just as they had done to me. This is a very emotionally based way to live. And it's also very exhausting, depressing, lonely and a scared way to live your life. Believe me, "emotionally" responding to every little thing and allowing your emotions to run wild at any given moment will leave you feeling worse than the meanest person you've ever met!

So what do we do with raging emotions?  How we should respond when we are hurt? Rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed!  I know it may be hard at first but with practice and determination anything is possible.  If anything at least you will be less frequent with your rages! Clothes yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.   You will be so much more happier and so much more productive everyday! We are all FREE to choose how we will respond! Respond with a thankful heart that you are alive and have a chance to do something great for yourself and others! Respond to others with compassion, kindness, love and forgiveness. You will see your relationships will grow stronger and you will grow happier.

So next time you are faced with a jerky person, difficult circumstances or just life not working out as you had planned...stop and think for a minute. Sometimes I have to tell myself, "Kelly, just stop it. Let's put our raging emotions on hold for a minute and ask what response be the best and make me a good person and stronger and realizing being negative never helps anything!?" That's a "tune" changer if I ever heard one! Ha ha ha! It changes my whiney, hurt, mad, "why me" type of emotional response EVERY TIME. And at the end of the day, I'm ALWAYS glad when I choose positivity over negativity!  I feel better, sleep better and enjoy peace rather than being tortured by my own wild emotions. You too can become an emotional wrangler if you give it a true shot! Emotions are part of who we are, but they should never be allowed to run totally wild. I'm done with the days that my emotions ruled me, and I'm learning more everyday how I can better wrangle them into submission! Remember that emotions ALWAYS need some sort of harness to head in the right direction. And the best harness is positivity! Huge love, KELLY

Opportunities!

Have you visited Opportunity lately?

Opportunities come into our life all the time...and sometimes we think they are problems...
but little do we know they are opportunities in disguise!

You have to make the most of opportunities that come your way quickly. Sometimes an opportunity come into our lives, and if we don't act on it...we miss it.

Sometimes we look at our opportunities and think.."OH NO! This looks like a big mess! Like a big pile of poop! Lots of heartbreak, sadness or loss!"...
BUT really, if we'd look closer, be quiet...and not go calling everyone we know to complain about it....in that stillness you will see the opportunity!

Whether your heart feels broken because someone you love has hurt you, left you or cheated on you...
this could actually be a BIG OPPORTUNITY to get out of and away from a BAD relationship....and time to be free to find someone that would never imagine hurting you in ANY way!

Maybe you've lost your job! This is how so many success stories have begun, people had no where to go and nothing to lose but to start a business or finally go after their dream career. When you're at the bottom...sometimes it's the best place because you won't worry about falling on some branches when you're somewhere in the middle...and you will BRAVELY and FEARLESSLY go after something with URGENCY because you have to. If you were making good money at a job, you might take your time and wait too long to start!
Remember: sometimes man says "YOU'RE FIRED!"....but that's right when someone or you can say, "NOW, I can HIRE YOU/MYSELF for something even greater!"

Don't let the LAND of EXCUSES cause you to lose your map to OPPORTUNITY TOWN!

I know of more people who the world considers handicapped...that DO MORE than "capable-bodied" people ever even think of doing!

These so called "handi-capped" people don't let anything, any excuse stop them from anything.
Nick  Vujicic was born without arm and legs and has accomplished more than people who have 2 more arms and legs than he needs to do anything!

Remember you have everything you need and nothing to feel bad about!


And don't worry about the "critics"...from strangers to ones you love come out of the woodwork and offer their "free opinion" about you or your situation.

People who don't dare go after anything in their own lives...have all the free time in the world to offer their opinion, criticism, and discouragement. Don't waste your time listening to them...you have a big, bright future to go after!

People always have bad things to say about someone who's doing something with their life. And it infuriates so called "highly intelligent" or educated people to see someone that isn't as "smart" or educated as they are doing greater things, inventing more amazing inventions, and being successful at anything.

Be an opportunity seeker...hunt for giant "diamonds of opportunity" in what feels like a big pile of poop that just landed in your life!

And remember:
the most beautiful flowers grow out of the most stinky, manure!

Start looking for the diamonds of hope today no matter how awful the package looks that just showed up in your life!

And remember, we are sent opportunities.....we have to take them or the opportunities are going to set sail without us!

Get out your map to OPPORTUNITY TOWN.....huge love and diamond hunting...your friend Kelly

Please feel free to pass this on, post this, share this with anyone that could use a little encouragement right now...and send a little more hope out into the world!

Let the tears fall!

I was eating lunch today...and even as my friend was making a joke that made me laugh...a  song came on by Bette Midler...and "safely hidden" from my friend on the phone...tears slipped down my face, as I listened to the song ...and I remember being not even in my teen years, and her saying this is our song and whenever you hear it think of your mommy...my heart just hurt. And I wanted to go back to that time again...I remember shopping with my mom that day for school clothes (the first year I lived as a girl age 12)....

Last night, I checked my phone to see a text from my sister about my mom...and
this song...in combination with some other things going on in my life...made tears fall like rain...but hopefully it washed my heart a little...

Something my momma used to say when she was alive...

"Those who sow (work) in tears..shall reap (take in, receive) in joy!"...this was like the biggest hug to my spirit...

We get these thoughts that try to discourage us...break our spirit...steal our joy....

and we MUST...must....be diligent and courageous in our thinking...not letting these pains and hurts of life...try to stop us...and kidnap our joy...

it never fails...as soon as you start working hard for something..going after your dream...trying to quit a bad habit...repairing an emotional wound....
it seems as if a sign that says "please attack me...make this harder than it is"...comes on...and next thing you know your doubting your ability and your strength...

I cried today a lot....and as no one answered their phone to talk with my "lonely" little self...I had no options left but to listen to a cd....I put in a cd of mine....and the voice boomed through the speakers right to my heart....and made me feel hope again..it was like it was saying...
NEVER GIVE UP!!!! Never let your "down" thoughts keep you down....

if you are hurting.....just know every tear is precious....and it is most definitely watering the beautiful flowers of blessings that are just waiting to spring up!!!

huge, huge love from my heart to you......and please feel the hug I'm sending too....I know I could always use an extra "hug though"......

Your Friend, Kelly

My Resolutions!

 

So a few things that I am changing in my life...I am 28 now..I know that's like 80 in tranny years!  Shut UP!!  But I realize as I get older I need to take better care of my body and start working out... ( I NEVER WORKED OUT - TILL NOW!). I mean I took 12 years of dance and 8 years of gymnastics, but that was more a passion.   It didn't feel like I was working OUT!

I go to the gym now quite regularly, and still feel like a hamster on atreadmill.  BUT I'm doing it! I still do my dance work out, but I have added stairs, treadmill, and the ball to my work out routine! I want to keep my tummy toned and I don't want to be SAGGY..so I know this is my only choice!

Now I was the girl that could eat anything and I mean anything unhealthy!  I loved unhealthy food (still do) but I have also realized I have to change my diet. Then have just ONE cheat day a week! Instead of every day! LMAO!!  I know with age comes that "POT BELLY" and I don't want it! I look at my sister who is 34 and four years ago she was skinny and didn't have a double chin, and now she has a double chin and thicker..(not fat) just has a ("pot belly") and I don't want that to happen to me! So guys I'm changing my diet! I have already started!  I have been doing really well!  My hubby is a health nut so he has been so happy with my choice.  WE get in less petty arguments about food intake!

On top of that I started taking vitamins again!  You don't always get what you need out of food intake, so taking vitamins definitely helps! I'm currently taking Vitamins E, D, C, b12, collagen, St. John's wort, and fish oil and I am already feeling more energetic and healthier!

I'm gonna try my damnedest to try to maintain this to make it a HABIT!

My second resolution is writing in my blog everyday! Which so far I have.. www.secretkelly.com I have even written three blog entries in one day!  I have been lazy and just let it sit there, and got a lot of complaints from fans.  I don't like disappointing my fans, so I am going to change that!

I am going to try to stay positive and productive and HEALTHY with lots of exercise! If you guys would like to join me let me know! Or type your own resolution in below!! And try to stick to it!

Your friend, Kelly

 

P.S. So for snacks I have implemented Jamba Juice into my regimen - I love the Strawberry Swirl! My husband likes the wheat grass he says it's very good for you! He made me drink it with him..let me tell you it tastes how it's supposed to lol! If you ever been outside while someone is mowing their yawn, and the taste gets in your mouth...thats exactly what it tastes like! Absolutely disgusting..NEVER AGAIN! I will stick to smoothies!

A video of him drinking this crap!

http://www.twitvid.com/QQG9U

Transsexual - What is it??????

Dictionary Description -

1. One who wishes to be considered by society as a member of the opposite sex, because they have the external genitalia and secondary sexual characteristics of one sex, but their personal identification and psychosocial configuration is that of the opposite sex.

2. One who has undergone a sex change

And so on and so forth it keeps going and going...

My description:  Now remember this is an opinion, and as an opinion it can be discounted by others as they so wish to do.  It doesn't mean it will change my opinion. I think every transsexual will have a different take on what a transsexual is and that's fine.  I don't feel like any of us can explain exactly how it feels or what it is to be a TRANSSEXUAL.  Or even UNDERSTAND WHY...it just IS!

A transsexual to me  is someone that feels that their body does not match their soul!  Someone who internally feels inside they are of the opposite sex and take the steps to fix it.  I call the others scared to become their NEEDED gender to be happy.  I don't consider everyone a transsexual, until they start living it!  Living the life and fantasizing about the life are two entirely different things.  And until you walk in the shoes darling..you have no right to call yourself a TRANSSEXUAL...Some may find that cruel, but it's real talk from me to you :)

Being a transsexual we are very taboo still, and many do not understand us.  Our community faces much social degradation and misunderstanding.  Not only from the straight community, but also from the gay community.   I want to tell you though their opinions do not matter!  Your opinion matters!  Remember your haters can only make you stronger!

Haters are going to hate!  People hate what they can't understand or perhaps they feel attracted to or feel like.  People in general fall into two categories either they like it or hate it!  There is no use killing yourself to try to make everyone like you!  Just be you and the real people that matter will fall in line!!

What do most people think of transsexuals?  They think we are ill, gross, perverted, prostitutes, gay, sex objects, fantasies (like unicorns), funny, drag queens, entertainers, outrageous, BEAUTICIANS/Make-up artists to help others less fortunate, and the list goes on and on!

So lets go through a list of stuff people say or do when they come into contact with a transsexual..Calpernia Addams the beacon to Transgender rights did a funny youtube video about this..What not to say/ask a Transsexual....I think she basically summed it all up!!  I couldn't really add anything more to this...so watch these videos :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BOjeZnjKlp0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLbf37pb1U0&feature=relmfu

Your Friend, KELLY  xoxoxoxo

By the way I'm still waiting to go to the gym GEEZE

Health Kick!

Hey guys, so I am on a new health kick.  I am 28 now getting closer to the 30 mark!  On April 19th, I turn 29 WOWEEEEE!!  Time flys by!!!!!!!!!!  Anyhoo I decided if I want to maintain my body and my looks I better start eating healthy, taking vitamins, and working out.

I have never really worked out a day in my life...I don't consider gym class in school "WORKING OUT"....and when I danced and did tumbling that was a passion for me and I never felt like I was working out.

When I go to the gym with my husband I look at all these people that look like they are on hamster wheels ie the treadmill!  I stick to dancing in the studio, the ball (for abs), and the stair machine for my legs and ass.  However in my opinion my dance routine keeps me sweating and working the hardest.  I am going to make it a priority to at least work out 3 times a week..FRIENDS you will have to help me with this!  My husband works out 4 to 5 times a week, and he is good at kicking my butt in line.  Maybe you guys want to start working out too?  We can help each other!  hee hee for us junk food/couch potatoes!!  Trust me I can EAT...I may not look like it, but I pack it away!  I've always said I'm a fat girl trapped in a skinny girls body!

I have changed a lot of my diet too!  I mean I didn't go nazi on my diet, but I did change it!  Eating more raw vegetables and fruit, less sugars, less can items, and more salads and chicken. Before I was eating a lot of unhealthy fatty meals!! I also am cutting pop out of my diet to only once a day or when I need an extra KICK of energy, until I finish off the pack I have in the fridge I had already bought...then it will be only on special occasions when we go out to a dinner possibly.  I usually order Arnold Palmers though or some foo foo drink lol

With the changing of my diet I have also decided to enhance myself with vitamins!  Which it's great for every trans-female to do if they are taking hormones.  In general though a lot of the food we eat wont give us the vitamin intake we really need, so taking vitamins will ensure we do!  I will give you a list of what I take and was told to take by my old hormone doctor - Dr. Odea.  I know I have mentioned his name plenty in my other blogs and on Secret Kelly Radio!  I love this guy! If I was still going to California regularly I would still be using him!

I just bought a bunch of new vitamins last night at Walgreen's for all this it came to about $40.00 and it was buy one get one free how cool is that! By the way I LOVE WALGREEN'S...it's one of my favorite stores!



Now I will tell what I take and what each one does :)

Vitamins:

Collagen - take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. This will help with your skin, hair, nails, anti-aging, and produce a very soft look for you.

Fish oil 1200 mg -  Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. Omega-3 fatty acids will help support a healthy heart. Omega-3 fatty acids also help maintain triglyceride levels already in the normal range. It can prevent aging, cancer, depression, bi-polar syndrome and chrone's disease.

Calcium 1200 mg -  Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. I think you know this is for your bone health! You don't want a hunch back when you are older do you?

Cranberry Vitamin - Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. This is for your cholesterol and helps keep infections and illnesses away. It purifies and lines your urine stream to keep you healthy! The hormones raise your cholesterol we want to keep it down!

St. John's Wort Vitamin - Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. Unless you feel drowsy take it only at night. This will help anxiety and depression. This will help prevent the mood swings and keep you sane and happy. It will promote a positive ATTITUDE!!

Vitamin D - Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. This will help keep your immune system regular, keep your brain and blood flow working well, and maintaining a healthy body weight.

OOPS I NEED TO ADD THAT I AM ALSO TAKING THE B12 VITAMIN - ONE IN THE MORNING AND ONE IN THE EVENING FOR BETTER BRAIN FUNCTION AND ENERGY...MY HORMONES AT TIMES MAKE ME SO TIRED!  THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN ANY ENERGY DRINK AND LETS NOT FORGET HEALTHIER! THOSE ENERGY DRINKS ARE NOT GOOD FOR YOU...GATORADE AND VITAMIN WATER AREN'T EITHER IT'S BASICALLY KOOLAIDE ie SUGAR WATER!

OKAY GOT TO SCOOTALADOO - EAT THEN GYM :) I'M GONNA WORK OUT HARD TODAY!

LOVE YOU GUYS!!  Your friend, KELLY :) (Have a Happy St. Patty's Day - If your not wearing green..I'll be PINCHING!!!)