My Favorite Things For July!!

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drum roll please......
Here I have the my June Favorite things...from nail polish and strips tp fav eye shadow palettes and phone!



www.iviscents.com

Girl Powder Lip Gloss:
http://girlpowder.myshopify.com/products/girl-powder-active-lip-gloss

Nailtini Cocktail Napkins - natural nail removers-
http://www.tinibeauty.com/products/the_mani_pedi_bar_cocktail_napkins.cfm



Leopard Nail Sticker Decal Polish Strips from Sephora and OPI:
http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P288816

Roller Girl Nail Polish Set from Urban Decay:http://www.urbandecay.com/rollergirl-nail-kit/301,default,pd.html?dwvar_301_c...


Urban Decay Naked Palette:
http://www.urbandecay.com/naked-palette-eyeshadow/245,default,pd.html



LipSurgeance Lip Stains:
http://tartecosmetics.com/tarte-item-lipsurgence-natural-matte-lip-tint

BEN NYE GLAM PALETTE ESP-954
(this palette is a beauty investments! But the size of the shadows is huge and you get 12 so that's only about $5.80 per shadow..and they are so amazingly pigmented and completely MATTE...no sparkle, shimmer, or frost at all!!) My sister and cousin both have these and said they don't even need to use any other eyeshadows!
I found some in the US here:
http://www.sillyfarm.com/store/index.php?p=product&id=4296&parent=728
for my UK lovies, you can get them here:
http://www.performerszone.com/acatalog/copy_of_Lips__Eyes__Cheeks.html

Benefit Cream Shadow in Birthday Suit:
http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P181807



Make-Up Forever Aqua Lip Liners in 8c (red), 16c (hot pink fuschia), 18c (coral), 17c (bright orange):

http://www.makeupforever.com/products/lips/lip-liner/aqua-lip.html

URBAN DECAY "SWEET AS CANDY" DEAL OF THE DAY ALERT!!!!

GET 25% off EVERYTHING AT URBAN DECAY

until July 10th,

with this FRIENDS & FAMILY code:

FFSUMMER11

click here for a "pretty saving" spree:

www.urbandecay.com

Enjoy,

LOVE KELLY!

Changing the way you see yourself...From Hate To Love

I spent many years hating who I was. I looked in the mirror and only saw imperfect, gross, and ugly staring back at me.

Here’s the other edge to the double edge sword of “hating yourself”—which is that you hate everybody else too. This is because you can only give away what you have. All I had was hate for me, and that’s all I had to give away.  I remember having a lot word vomit about a lot of people out of jealousy when younger.  I am so glad I'm over that stage of my life.

So how do you stop hating yourself when you can’t buy a new life, body, eyes, thighs or whatever it is that you hate about yourself? It begins with the inside. Why? Because finding redeeming qualities and personality that stand out can make anyone beautiful.  I've come across a lot of "beautiful people" with really horrible attitudes  and personalities that people just hate.  I have also come across people with beautiful personalities and attitudes about life who aren't attractive that seem to attract people like light to a moth.   But remember this also takes believing in yourself and surrounding yourself with positive people.  As well as accepting you and being the best you can be!


Remember love is blind for a reason. Not some crazy self absorbed thing, but true love is: (I know this is a bible verse (I'm an atheist), but it's still one of my favorite quotes from when I was a child)

1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

This is the love that you nee to give yourself, and when you do — you are filled on the inside. And with that loving heart and new attitude towards yourself is HOW we are able to show real love to others. Because first we must give love to ourselves, then we may give of it freely to others. Until then you will have superficial relationships with lovers and friends.  You'll be infused with jealousy which will cause you to gossip, hate, and be low and mean to others.

I am hoping for every pair of eyes that reads this. That you will fill yourself with love in every area of your life that has self hate, and that an attitude of gratitude wells up on the inside and restoration is done INSIDE so that you can give love on the OUTSIDE!

Find outlets - speak to someone about how you feel whether it be family, friends, or if you believe in God - confide in him.   Realize that these hurt feelings and self hate need to be flushed out!  Surround yourself with positive people and cut out the negative people who make you feel bad about yourself.

Just a tip what I  have done for years.  Everyday after I shower and still naked,  I tell myself I'm beautiful over and over again in the mirror about 20 times.  Then I dance to a few of my favorite songs to lift my spirits.  It has helped a lot.  Find what helps you!
Don't be afraid to confide your deepest feelings into someone you love - they are there to be an ear!  It's okay to hurt - we all do!  GOOD LUCK!

A ten gallon bucket of love,
Kelly

PS: Remember to Speak this out loud until you believe it, “I'm beautiful and deserve to be loved and I love myself!” because it’s the TRUTH!

Family Ties!

Tonight we visited my hubbie's mom, because he wasn't feeling well today (what a baby lol).  However, it was complicated by his mother and him having a huge fight that's a recurring argument in their lives (ack).  Know, however, I am very proud of him for not blowing up (he has a short fuse) and for comforting her.  They have sort of a destructive past life, due to her inability to get over the fact  that his father ran out on them so early on.  He was her one true love.  I'm glad I can help stabilize their relationship and start a new family.  I'm glad my hubby has become more aware of not blaming his mother for everything.  It takes two to be a parent, and he doesn't fully understand where his mother comes from.  However it's not something a child should need to understand.  I'm just glad they are talking to each other calmly and admitting each others faults.  And not screaming past one another.  I love my mother-in-law and I love my husband.  I know sometimes she has a hard time dealing with the fact that I'm a transsexual, but at the end of the day she always tells me you are so beautiful and sweet and helpful.  I couldn't ask for a better women in my sons life.

So I am super sorry about the cam4 show tonight - we weren't at our best.  But we all talked more tonight and are going to bed happy and a family!
Love you guys!

Kelly!

Flawless Skin in 5 Easy Steps!

I get asked all the time:

"how do I get perfect looking skin and foundation that doesn't look cakey or heavy, but dewy, light and natural?"...

get your foundation out and let's get started!

STEP 1 (optional)
apply a PRIMER- your skin will look smoother and your make-up will last longer
either to smooth the skin- minimize pores or fine lines
OR
to control oil and shine
*i love URBAN DECAY COMPLEXION PRIMER POTION in brightening

STEP 2
apply a foundation -all over your face and make sure to blend down onto your neck...you don't want to look like you have a "foundation-beard" ha ha

*I love:

budget-beauty price: L'oreal TruMatch Super Blendable Make-Up
beauty bucks-but worth it: Laura Mercier Silk Creme Foundation

STEP 3
"CONCEAL BABY! CONCEAL!"
apply concealer to all the "hot spots" of redness or dark circles!
1. your eyelids - from lashline to brows
2. around the nostrils (a red nose is only cute on Rudolph!)
3. around the lips (to get red of the red pigment if you're apply a lip color and wants its true color to show)
4. under the eyes in a "triangle shape"
5. BONUS: down the nose and between the eye brows - to make the nose look straighter and brighten the eye and brow area.

* i love:

beauty-bargainista: Revlon Photo Ready Concealer ( i lovvvvve this!)
bang for you beauty bucks: COVER FX  Foundation (i use it as a concealer because it's so heavy)

STEP 4
dust powder on area that get oily
OR
that you're going to put make-up on
the nose
eyelids
chin
forehead
any translucent powder will be fine

STEP 5
THE GLOW, BABY! this is how you get your make-up to look dewy, light and glowy!
HIGHLIGHT CREAM:
i love: Pearl & Shell from MAC
or High Beam from Benefit
budget-beauty trick: use a frosted or shimmery lipstick as a highlight cream!

DAB either a shimmery powder like Silver Dusk Highlight Powder from MAC OR
a shimmery eyeshadow...onto cheekbones and down the center of the noes! 
AND VOILA! PERFECT, NATURAL LOOKING DEWY, GLOWY SKIN THAT JUST MAKES YOUR FACE LOOK LIGHT AND FLAWLESS!
HOPE THIS HELPS :)

LOVE and cakey free foundation - Kelly

Tried my new hair extensions

I got my new hair extensions finally and decided to try them out!  I will take better pics soon :) The dress I am wearing a fan bought me :)

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From start to finish...

No make up to make up - A lot of people wonder what I look like with out make up etc and so I'm baring myself to the world once again!

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RIP Bridget

Something I wrote for Bridget...

Thank goodness for the internet! Sometimes you come across a kindred spirit. Who is just a beautiful person inside and out. That you would of never of known with out the invention of this thing called the internet.


I met Bridget just that way a few years ago on a message board. She was funny, bright, and attractive. I don't think Bridget ever really knew this though. A young transitioner always looking to better her looks. She was already to the point of passability with out any surgery.


She was going to college and living a normal every day girl life. We spoke more in chatrooms and we would laugh and goof off. Just have a barrel of laughs. Her personality was sweet, caring, and comedic. A little bit of a rambler that came across as cute. But always looking for advice from other girls to look better. When in my opinion the girls she was asking, couldn't touch her in looks or personality.


I think many girls are like this - I would tell her every time we spoke "Not to go overboard and she already looks great". She would tell me her idol or wanted to like Audrina Partridge. She recently made a consultation appointment with Dr. Zukowski to gain this goal in her life. I was supposed to meet with her while she was here, but my husband and I got busy so I couldn't make it. She was coming back to see Dr. Zukowski again and stay a few weeks she said! Which would of been awesome to of seen her then. I'm so upset I didn't get a chance to actually meet her. If I had of known I would of gone out of my way to meet this lovely angel.


Bridget, would confide in me about personal problems and other things going on in her life. However I never thought it was anything she couldn't handle. She always came off bright and bubbly. So to know that she decided to take her own life is just shocking and upsetting to me. It just proves that there needs to be more outreach between trans-person to trans-person. She was such a young girl with so much promise and life to lead. I thought when I spoke to her. I made her see that, or at least tried to.


Bridget, I sincerely loved you little girl. Rather we met in person or not. I cherished our talks, our times in chat. It's really the only reason I came into the chatroom to converse with you and of course our friend Ed. I will miss you always, and think of you always. I will push myself more to do the radio show to outreach with transsexuals. You told me it was good I was doing this, and you supported and listened to my radio show. How I wish this didn't happen and you were coming back to Chicago so we could have a day of shopping and talking about your plans for the future.


To know Bridget in my opinion - Was a Gift...She was a bright light that made you laugh.


I wish she had of known how wonderful many of us who knew her thought she was.


I wish she had known that she had so many more wonderful years ahead of her and she was only beginning.


Let's Remember Bridget as the beautiful Angel she was, not for the pain she had inside or the loss of her. Let's celebrate her life and what she was so maybe somehow or someway she can finally feel and KNOW how wonderful and beautiful she really was!


I love you Bridget!!

Dreams!

Don't be scared of your dreams or dreaming...
some people are so scared of failure that they never try...
but the only way to make it happen is to TRY!
Not one successful person will say they didn't try sweethearts!

Your dreams are there for a reason...no one else will create or do what you will. It's like if you asked two people to paint a picture of the same tree..each one would do it entirely different. That's the beauty of each one of us being made unique, with fingerprints and "talent-prints"...that only belong to each of us. No one...NOT ONE, other person has your "talent-prints"....your
"dream-prints"!!!

The world needs you to flourish and blossom your dreams...remember...
YOU ARE THE ONLY GARDENER OF YOUR DREAM GARDEN!!
Make SURE to:

Water your garden...
(Discipline yourself and encourage and fill your dream garden with positive thoughts.)

Pull the weeds...
(the negative thoughts from you and everyone else!)

And last but not least Fertilize...

(encourage yourself daily...despite what anyone else tells you! Tell yourself...I am special, no one else has what I've got! The world needs me)

"You are more beautiful than you know...more talented than you think...and more loved than you can imagine!"- Kelly (my words to each one of you!)

You can do it! Be like a speeding train that no one can stop...headed straight for dream town!

AND one last bit of wisdom my mama told me: "Desire without discipline leads no where!"
so discipline yourself to do something about that precious dream of yours, that keeps knocking at your heart!

You put that dream in the suitcases of your heart...it's time to unpack those dreams and show them to the world!!!

This blog was typed with love and so much encouragement for you...please feel all that I filled it with for you!!! Huge love you wonderful, precious dreamers, you!

You can pass this message on to anyone else that has a "dream garden" that could use this little bit of "dream grower"!

Your Friend - Kelly

Let the tears fall!

I was eating lunch today...and even as my friend was making a joke that made me laugh...a  song came on by Bette Midler...and "safely hidden" from my friend on the phone...tears slipped down my face, as I listened to the song ...and I remember being not even in my teen years, and her saying this is our song and whenever you hear it think of your mommy...my heart just hurt. And I wanted to go back to that time again...I remember shopping with my mom that day for school clothes (the first year I lived as a girl age 12)....

Last night, I checked my phone to see a text from my sister about my mom...and
this song...in combination with some other things going on in my life...made tears fall like rain...but hopefully it washed my heart a little...

Something my momma used to say when she was alive...

"Those who sow (work) in tears..shall reap (take in, receive) in joy!"...this was like the biggest hug to my spirit...

We get these thoughts that try to discourage us...break our spirit...steal our joy....

and we MUST...must....be diligent and courageous in our thinking...not letting these pains and hurts of life...try to stop us...and kidnap our joy...

it never fails...as soon as you start working hard for something..going after your dream...trying to quit a bad habit...repairing an emotional wound....
it seems as if a sign that says "please attack me...make this harder than it is"...comes on...and next thing you know your doubting your ability and your strength...

I cried today a lot....and as no one answered their phone to talk with my "lonely" little self...I had no options left but to listen to a cd....I put in a cd of mine....and the voice boomed through the speakers right to my heart....and made me feel hope again..it was like it was saying...
NEVER GIVE UP!!!! Never let your "down" thoughts keep you down....

if you are hurting.....just know every tear is precious....and it is most definitely watering the beautiful flowers of blessings that are just waiting to spring up!!!

huge, huge love from my heart to you......and please feel the hug I'm sending too....I know I could always use an extra "hug though"......

Your Friend, Kelly

You should not be happy!

Every single one of us has been depressed, sad, hurt, hopeless...
Whether you are sad over a relationship, the lack of a relationship, no job, not the job you want, no money, huge bills, you're frustrated with your life, your family... 

You should not be happy!

This probably sounds weird coming from me...who seems eternally happy...so happy, that some people have accused me of being fake! They couldn't figure out how someone could be happy all the time!
And the truth is, I'm not happy all the time.

 

Happiness is based on some thing or event, that MAKES you FEEL happy. (It makes me happy when someone hugs me or says something nice to me....those are my personal examples....)...but JOY is really what I have. Joy is what's in your heart no matter what is going on around you...

I have been through some less than wonderful things in my life, but I have been joyful during these...I've been able to smile, laugh, and be joyfully "happy" during these times... 

Not a lot of people have joy in their hearts...and happiness is too wishy-washy to depend on...
If someone doesn't make us happy, we're sad, if nothing exciting or hopeful happens, we're sad...if someone hurts our feelings, we're sad...but JOY is something that we experience in our hearts...that isn't dependent on outside circumstances...

People ask me, "how are you so happy?"....And I answer my mom gave me/taught me the meaning of joy in my life. If you don't agree with me, that's totally fine....if you do, that's awesome...I just wanted the share the reason that I have joy in my life. Joy is what has always gotten me through everything!

Here's one thing that I heard yesterday, that was so great to let sink into my heart.

Be joyful always; give thanks in all circumstances!


Have the most joyfully day!!! Huge love from my heart to yours, and as my grama used to sign her letters: "JOYFULLY", Kelly

My Resolutions!

 

So a few things that I am changing in my life...I am 28 now..I know that's like 80 in tranny years!  Shut UP!!  But I realize as I get older I need to take better care of my body and start working out... ( I NEVER WORKED OUT - TILL NOW!). I mean I took 12 years of dance and 8 years of gymnastics, but that was more a passion.   It didn't feel like I was working OUT!

I go to the gym now quite regularly, and still feel like a hamster on atreadmill.  BUT I'm doing it! I still do my dance work out, but I have added stairs, treadmill, and the ball to my work out routine! I want to keep my tummy toned and I don't want to be SAGGY..so I know this is my only choice!

Now I was the girl that could eat anything and I mean anything unhealthy!  I loved unhealthy food (still do) but I have also realized I have to change my diet. Then have just ONE cheat day a week! Instead of every day! LMAO!!  I know with age comes that "POT BELLY" and I don't want it! I look at my sister who is 34 and four years ago she was skinny and didn't have a double chin, and now she has a double chin and thicker..(not fat) just has a ("pot belly") and I don't want that to happen to me! So guys I'm changing my diet! I have already started!  I have been doing really well!  My hubby is a health nut so he has been so happy with my choice.  WE get in less petty arguments about food intake!

On top of that I started taking vitamins again!  You don't always get what you need out of food intake, so taking vitamins definitely helps! I'm currently taking Vitamins E, D, C, b12, collagen, St. John's wort, and fish oil and I am already feeling more energetic and healthier!

I'm gonna try my damnedest to try to maintain this to make it a HABIT!

My second resolution is writing in my blog everyday! Which so far I have.. www.secretkelly.com I have even written three blog entries in one day!  I have been lazy and just let it sit there, and got a lot of complaints from fans.  I don't like disappointing my fans, so I am going to change that!

I am going to try to stay positive and productive and HEALTHY with lots of exercise! If you guys would like to join me let me know! Or type your own resolution in below!! And try to stick to it!

Your friend, Kelly

 

P.S. So for snacks I have implemented Jamba Juice into my regimen - I love the Strawberry Swirl! My husband likes the wheat grass he says it's very good for you! He made me drink it with him..let me tell you it tastes how it's supposed to lol! If you ever been outside while someone is mowing their yawn, and the taste gets in your mouth...thats exactly what it tastes like! Absolutely disgusting..NEVER AGAIN! I will stick to smoothies!

A video of him drinking this crap!

http://www.twitvid.com/QQG9U

GET TESTED!!!

Make sure you guys get tested REGULARLY!  To stop the spread of STD's!!  It's the only way we can help control it!  Your Friend, Kelly

Health Kick!

Hey guys, so I am on a new health kick.  I am 28 now getting closer to the 30 mark!  On April 19th, I turn 29 WOWEEEEE!!  Time flys by!!!!!!!!!!  Anyhoo I decided if I want to maintain my body and my looks I better start eating healthy, taking vitamins, and working out.

I have never really worked out a day in my life...I don't consider gym class in school "WORKING OUT"....and when I danced and did tumbling that was a passion for me and I never felt like I was working out.

When I go to the gym with my husband I look at all these people that look like they are on hamster wheels ie the treadmill!  I stick to dancing in the studio, the ball (for abs), and the stair machine for my legs and ass.  However in my opinion my dance routine keeps me sweating and working the hardest.  I am going to make it a priority to at least work out 3 times a week..FRIENDS you will have to help me with this!  My husband works out 4 to 5 times a week, and he is good at kicking my butt in line.  Maybe you guys want to start working out too?  We can help each other!  hee hee for us junk food/couch potatoes!!  Trust me I can EAT...I may not look like it, but I pack it away!  I've always said I'm a fat girl trapped in a skinny girls body!

I have changed a lot of my diet too!  I mean I didn't go nazi on my diet, but I did change it!  Eating more raw vegetables and fruit, less sugars, less can items, and more salads and chicken. Before I was eating a lot of unhealthy fatty meals!! I also am cutting pop out of my diet to only once a day or when I need an extra KICK of energy, until I finish off the pack I have in the fridge I had already bought...then it will be only on special occasions when we go out to a dinner possibly.  I usually order Arnold Palmers though or some foo foo drink lol

With the changing of my diet I have also decided to enhance myself with vitamins!  Which it's great for every trans-female to do if they are taking hormones.  In general though a lot of the food we eat wont give us the vitamin intake we really need, so taking vitamins will ensure we do!  I will give you a list of what I take and was told to take by my old hormone doctor - Dr. Odea.  I know I have mentioned his name plenty in my other blogs and on Secret Kelly Radio!  I love this guy! If I was still going to California regularly I would still be using him!

I just bought a bunch of new vitamins last night at Walgreen's for all this it came to about $40.00 and it was buy one get one free how cool is that! By the way I LOVE WALGREEN'S...it's one of my favorite stores!



Now I will tell what I take and what each one does :)

Vitamins:

Collagen - take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. This will help with your skin, hair, nails, anti-aging, and produce a very soft look for you.

Fish oil 1200 mg -  Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. Omega-3 fatty acids will help support a healthy heart. Omega-3 fatty acids also help maintain triglyceride levels already in the normal range. It can prevent aging, cancer, depression, bi-polar syndrome and chrone's disease.

Calcium 1200 mg -  Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. I think you know this is for your bone health! You don't want a hunch back when you are older do you?

Cranberry Vitamin - Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. This is for your cholesterol and helps keep infections and illnesses away. It purifies and lines your urine stream to keep you healthy! The hormones raise your cholesterol we want to keep it down!

St. John's Wort Vitamin - Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. Unless you feel drowsy take it only at night. This will help anxiety and depression. This will help prevent the mood swings and keep you sane and happy. It will promote a positive ATTITUDE!!

Vitamin D - Take one capsule in the morning and one capsule in the evening daily with 10oz of water, preferably on an empty stomach or immediately before meal. This will help keep your immune system regular, keep your brain and blood flow working well, and maintaining a healthy body weight.

OOPS I NEED TO ADD THAT I AM ALSO TAKING THE B12 VITAMIN - ONE IN THE MORNING AND ONE IN THE EVENING FOR BETTER BRAIN FUNCTION AND ENERGY...MY HORMONES AT TIMES MAKE ME SO TIRED!  THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN ANY ENERGY DRINK AND LETS NOT FORGET HEALTHIER! THOSE ENERGY DRINKS ARE NOT GOOD FOR YOU...GATORADE AND VITAMIN WATER AREN'T EITHER IT'S BASICALLY KOOLAIDE ie SUGAR WATER!

OKAY GOT TO SCOOTALADOO - EAT THEN GYM :) I'M GONNA WORK OUT HARD TODAY!

LOVE YOU GUYS!!  Your friend, KELLY :) (Have a Happy St. Patty's Day - If your not wearing green..I'll be PINCHING!!!)

I have a DARE for you!

This is the look of happiness even though my body feels more like "Sleepless in Seattle"...except that I'm no where near Seattle! ha ha ha

My random thoughts on tv right now: since I've watched more tv lately, than I think I have in years...I am now fully caught up on "reality-ness"...and man, I have to say...tv seems to like to enjoy showing how awful, rude, and mean people can be...
it's almost like the worse people are the more popular the show is!  This is so sad...and makes me feel awful seeing people being so mean and rude.

There should be a channel that shows fun, positive, nice people...that can still be cool and hip and stylish, but just nice and kind to other people...something that makes you feel better after you've watched it! I MEAN GEEZE! Come on HOLLYWOOD!!

Here's some wise words everyone should have taped on their mirror (ha ha ha):
Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.

Imagine how great our days would be if everyone we talked to said kind, inspiring things....and didn't say anything rude, sarcastic, or mean!?!

This is a dare...or rather this is our mission, if you choose to accept it:

Today (go crazy..make it everyday)...stop yourself when you start to say anything that isn't positive, kind, or anything slightly gossip-y....
and only say things that have a positive spin, are kind, happy and encouraging.....
watch how YOU will not only feel happier...but so will everyone that is around you!
they will leave happier for having talked to you!

so let's get out there...especially all of YOU, because I'm not really leaving my house much with webcamming and having a family...ha ha ha...and spread some kindess...and extra "thank you so much" or "have an awesome day!"....or real compliment to brighten someone's day up!

You guys are wonderful and remember the happiness in your heart is like a flower with seeds that are waiting to be thrown all around...to grow more happiness in other people's hearts!

Go our there gorgeous and shine that beauty that's inside....your friend, Kelly!

Really a new IPHONE 5 already??

(see...here I am with an iphone 3 still...I haven't even had the chance to get a new iPhone4 and I been way cellularly outdated! ha ha)

I feel like the keep that can't keep up with the "coolness"...
it's like just when you buy wide leg pants...skinny jeans are in...
you  buy all skinny jeans and and guess what....jeans up to your neck, are COOL now!

Man, and I just thinking about getting an iphone 4....my hubby just got one cause his iPhone 3 was stolen and I don't really notice that big of difference between the two BUT
now rumors of the iphone 5 are out!

YES THE iphone 5 is gonna blow old iphone 3 & 4 right out of it's shiny, "shatter-able" case!

why the iphone 5 (rumored to be out in June) will practically shoot fireworks out it's top:

• Dual Core Processor- making it work at ridiculous speeds


• It will have 5 billion megapixels..ha ha..ok not 5 billion but it will have better camera and video features


• It will run on  a 4G network..making 3G look like "3's not company...because 4's a party!"

• Expected to have Face Recognition Security so unless someone has an exact model of your face no one's gettin' into your phone!


• Video Chat on a 4G network instead of a "snoozy" 3G network


• Thinner and better design


• Shatter Resistant and Scratch Resistant Screen- now we're talking! (really did it need to be glass on the front and back of the 4G...well it was a good way to increase protective case sales!) ha ha


• The lowest model will have 32 G of space!


• Longer Battery Life - Up to 14 Hours of Talk Time On The 3G and 7 Hours on the 4G.(I could just live stream face-time more than half my day away!)


• HD Audio -even the sound will be sweeter to your ears!


• Built In GPS -Now you'll never be able to use the "i got lost excuse"...ha ha ha

Why this makes me sad:

*I haven't even got the 4G iphone!

*Now I have to wait till the 5G iPhone comes out! ha ha

*Once again, if I relied on material things to be cool....I'd still be the kid eating lunch by herself in the cafeteria.

AND A NEW IPAD 2... I don't even have an ipad 1!

On this one...I can't even begin to keep up, when I don't even have an ipad to update!

RUMORS of the ipad 2:

from this picture it's supposed to show the microphone on the back as well as the ipad 2 on there!

It's "rumored" to have 2 cameras...one on the screen for face-time video chats...and one for taking pics

ohh la la...they sent the old ipad on a diet..and the new ipad 2 is now half it's size! ha ha

Maybe I'll do that to lose my baby weight, introducing Kandee 5, 4 times the baby, 5 times the weight loss! ha ha ha

The new ipad will also come with a SMGPS- Soul Mate GPS...so you can see exactly where your soulmate is to track them down! ha ha ha (just kidding, I just made that part up!)

Good thing I don't rely on having the latest and greatest to be the coolest...I like being outdated and slow...ha ha ha....I'll be like a cool vintage car with big fins in a world full of Prius's...

pink cadillacs and brick phones....

your friend Kelly!

How To Deal With Rude People!!

I think everyone at some point in their day or week, comes across the path of at least one person who is rude to you.

I encountered a few people in my life that were extra-rude! I first thought, maybe they are just having a bad day, maybe they can't help that they lack people skills and kindness. Then as I continued to speak to rude person #1, I realized, "I think they are just rude!" Then I came across rude person #2, and again I was amazed at their rudeness! How can these people go though life mowing people over with their horrible attitudes and words?

This is what I've realized when I "get" to come in contact with these "rude-y's"...

#1. Don't let them effect you with their rudeness ~ I try to never react with what I feel like dishing out to them...that would make me just as awful as them.
To the rude lady at the cupcake shop who rudely tried to make me feel like an idiot..to which I could have rudely replied, "You are one of the rudest business people I've ever dealt with...I could go on twitter/youtube/facebook and have thousands of people hear about how stinkin' rude you are and that NO ONE should ever buy your stupid cupcakes. You have the worst people skills and HOW DARE YOU SPEAK TO anyone, let alone a potential customer that way you depressing little woman! I don't want anyone to ever have to deal with you or your pretentious little cupcake bakery!" BUT I DIDN'T SAY ANY  OF THAT! (i just had to think of all the awful things I COULD have said, but I don't even naturally think like that! ha ha ha)
Instead I said, "OK, sounds like this won't work out. Maybe I'll try back when you have all your ordering figured out. Have a great day, bye!"

#2. Never let these rudey ones put a damper on your happiness ~ Don't let them steal your happiness, that only lets them win with the "power of their rudeness"! The best revenge is being extra happy and not-effected!

#3. Overpower the rudeness ~ that saying kill em' with kindness is my favorite way of dealing with rude people. Nothing makes a "rudey" feel worse than when you are nice to them...it takes the angry wind, right out of their sails!

#4. People that are rude have no clue what graciousness is ~ Graciousness is marked by kindness, sympathy, and unaffected politeness (according to the dictionary) and rude people are the complete opposite - Ungraciousness is an offensive lack of good manners. We want nothing to do with that.

#5.  Feel sorry for rude people ~ Yes, that's right, feel sorry for them, this is a horrible "disease of rudeness" that they have. I bet they have misery and anger in their lives at every turn. That's why it spills out of them like an overflowing bathtub...you get filled up on what's in the inside and it spills out.

#6. Spill some kindess ~ just like the "rudey's" are full of anger and misery (their bathtubs are overflowing)......make sure you fill yourself with kindness, so that kindness spills out on everyone that comes in your path, from a waitress to your grandma, to a stranger that you hold the door open for, or let go in front of you in line when you see they only have a few items and you have a whole cart full.

Rudeness only has an effect if we let it. Are there rude people in the world? Yes. Are they almost everywhere we go? Yes. Do we have to be victim to their rudeness? NO! We can choose to put up our mirror of "rude-reflection"...not only will it bounce back the rudeness that they just spit out at us...so that our kindness will show them how "rude-iculous" they were, but also, that we WILL NOT LET IT EFFECT US or our DAY! And even if they still keep on keepin' on with their rude ways.....we can rejoice that we are not like that, and get away from them as fast as we can!

May you be a light of sparkling kindness wherever you go today...leave a path of people who feel better for having come into your presence. A big smile, a nice "thanks you so much!", and a kind, "have a great day!"...can totally bring a smile to someone's day.
A compliment, a kind smile, and something nice or encouraging...will always make someone's day better!

Let's be a huge revolution of "happy-day-maker's" where ever we go today...and every day!

typed with love from someone who battled a few "rudeys" all day...and not a one of them won! ha ha ha

huge love and super big smile...Your Kelly!

How to get rid of that stormy day!

ARE YOU GOING THOUGH A STORM IN LIFE?

I love the saying: "Don't Let the Storms of Your Past, Cloud Your Future"

I've had many storms in my life, from being cheated on, hurt, feeling like my dreams were over, the pain of the loss of my parents, being a transsexual, being broke, I could keep going on and on (ha ha ha)...and I definitely could've let that gloom up my future.

• Whether it was a relationship "storm"- someone hurt you, cheated on you, broke your heart, betrayed you.


• A depression storm- you feel hopeless, sad, and feel like giving up.

• A financial storm - you are feeling like your wallet is way to empty, your bank account has gone on a diet, and your bills are scaring you...


• Past Storms- you had a bad childhood, loss of someone dear to you, you've grown up with a family life, you've had trouble in your past, you feel guilty over something.

Chase the Storm Clouds Away

You have to make sure you chase the storm clouds away, and let the beautiful rainbow of your future come out and shine.

Your thoughts are more powerful than you know!!!

• If you just let any old "stormy" thought keep creeping into your mind- you are sure to stay in "stormy-land"!


• You must "re-set" the weather in your life!


• Think about how you want things to be, instead of how things are or how they have been. ~ If you've been hurt or disappointed, stop thinking about how hurt and disappointed you are and think about and tell yourself, "I am strong and have a bright future! I am getting better and better each day!"

• And just like you can't eat once a week and think that will keep you filled, you need to eat several times a day...same thing with your thoughts- you need to feed your mind with positive thoughts all day long!

GET READY TO LET THE RAINBOW SHINE IN YOUR FUTURE

Sure we may have more storms in life...but as long as you don't let the rain and clouds ruin your future...you can anticipate the rainbow!

The sun will always come out!

And sometimes our tears are like the rain that waters the rainbows in our heart! So, my precious hearts....if the rain or tears are falling right now in your life....know that I am sending you a hug right now, for my arms to hold your heart...and say, "it's okay....this storm will pass, and  your future will grow full with blossoms, for even the flowers need the rainstorms to grow!"

My life has seen storms of all kinds....heartbreak, hopelessness, hurt, sadness, no money...just feeling like I can't go on...

and through it all I would tell myself, "Stop it Kelly...you better stop it with this sinkin'-stinkin'-thinkin'....and get your mind back on track with positive thoughts right now!"

*where the mind goes...the person follows....

Lead your self into great thoughts and places.

Tell yourself:

• I am great (even if you feel you're not...yet!)


• I am cherished and adored!


• My future is going to be awesome!


• I can't wait to see what is waiting for me  in this life!


• I will make my dreams come true!


• I will find someone that will cherish and love me so much they will NEVER even think of hurting me in ANY way at all!


• I am worthy of being loved!


• I am happy- rain or shine!

I love you all so much...and I don't care what storms you have in your past...THEY WILL NOT CLOUD YOUR FUTURE....the storms only watered the blossoms in your life....and will make your future that much more beautiful with "watered" flowers!

This day is great and is waiting for you to change your thoughts, which will change your mind, which will change your life!


Watch your thoughts, for they become your words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become your character.
Watch your character, for it becomes you destiny.
- Anonymous

People always ask if it's okay to repost something I've written- PLEASE, please, please feel free to pass this on, post it where ever you'd like...I want to be able to encourage as many hurting, "stormy" hearts as possible!

Think about thoughts that are wonderful today....don't let those little "cloudy" thoughts sneek in...
huge love and even bigger, better thoughts....your Kelly

BE BRAVE - Original Poetry - Dedicated to the LGBT Community

Are you swimming up stream

in oceans of blue

Do you feel like your sinking?

Are you sick of the rain

after all you've been through?

Well I know what you're thinking

When you can't take it

Just believe you can make it

Sometime soon I know you'll see

 

Cause when you're in your darkest hour

And all of the light just fades away

and When you're like a single flower

whose colors have turned to shades of gray

Please hang on and be brave

 

We're taking each step one day at a time

You can't loose your spirit

Let live and let live

Forget and forgive

It's all how you see it

And just remember keep it together

Don't you know you're never alone

 

Realize you're not defeated

And soon you'll be smiling once again

Then you won't have to feel it

You will let it go with the wind

Time passes us by

And know that you're allowed to cry

 

Cause when you're in your darkest hour

And all of the light just fades away

When you're like a single flower whose colors

have turned to shades of gray

Just hang on and be brave

Family Day & Christmas

So today my hubby and I are spending the day with his daughter and my step-daughter.  We decided to go to her favorite place Magiquest!  It's kind of funny to watch two grown adults playing, but hey what they hell we had fun! We played the quest game and we dueled. I was kicking everyone's butt in the duel till one of the guys showed my hubby how to play DAMN HIM!! lol

If you don't know what Magiquest is, it's very harry potteresque like. You get wands and have to collect different runes. It was my first time getting my own wand today so I had to catch up! My hubby and sweet baby girl both got Master Magi! I will get it next time. I got 9 of the runes in an hour, when they both only got 5 or 6 their first times. I got a pink wand (of course)! I will post pictures. We also got her a dragon - her favorite at the moment.

We ate lunch at the infamous Ed Debevics. It was her first time going. She loved it. Her father was so against it, but he actually liked it in the end. They do a cute dance and treat you rudely on purpose.  Now she is addicted and wants to go all the time. We will see. We will spend the rest of the night playing board games.  I love these times!  Makes me feel so happy to look at my husband smiling and my beautiful step-daughter full of joy as a child is supposed to be.

Christmas we spent with my hubby's family. We went out to eat at a nice Italian restaurant and had the best conversation! Full of love and cheer, as well as understanding!  His mom was so funny, my hubby tried tricking her that the bathroom was in this private party to embarass her. It didn't work lol! The next morning his mom made Eggstrada and french toast and we opened presents! It was the most fun. I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas!

INCLUDED PICTURES FROM MAGIQUEST MY WAND IS THE PINK WAND,  MY HUBBY'S IS THE BROWN ONE, THE STEP-DAUGHTERS IS THE SILVER AND THEN PICTURES OF OUR CHRISTMAS TREE AND DECORATIONS IN THE BEDROOM

 

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