Friday, December 30, 2011
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My Wish - Stop Oppression
My Wish – by Kelly Shore
Stop Oppression. We can do it if we just be ourselves with out word slinging and violence. Why is it we transpeople feel we need to talk back to a group of guys that clocked us in public? Why do we need to escalate it so it’s another transsexuals death in vain? A beautiful individual working her/his way down the path of peace within her/his self. The peace they will never be allowed over an escalated argument or dating a man or woman under false pretenses. I’ll go more into this topic later.
It’s a minute out of our day that we were name called, but we have 23:59 to keep on our path and the rest of our lives. I say let’s bury our pride and worry about ourselves and safety first. Too many transsexuals deaths come from escalating the issue of hate. We think standing up and yelling back at the person/persons emotionally bruising us is going to make them change their mind or change what was said that made us so mad. I can tell you it won’t. I have always believed you can always catch more bees with honey. When we decide to take part in the word slinging it escalates the hate more and gives them the catalyst to make it easier to physically harm us. Who knows if that day it will be a beating or death. Why play with fire people?
I don’t get why we give these people filled with hate so much power over our lives? We should worry more about what we think of ourselves and what our loved ones think, before instigating a mob of haters. So they called us a fag, a man, a woman, a dyke, a pervert, or whatever lame attempt they can throw at us let them have it. In the end we know who we are and what path we are on. Let him have his view, if thats what it takes to keep us safe for another day. We still have our view, he hasn’t taken it from us. The media hasn’t stripped us of who we are, like they’ve done to so many of us. Hold dear to things in our life we value and love. Remember that tomorrow we most likely won’t even remember the incident the day before. This keeps us safe and gives us the time we need to achieve our genders we need to be viewed as, live as, and love as. Escalating hate in an instant we can have this ripped away from us. Remember time is precious, life is precious, and lying on a morgue table still pre-operative is not a wish I have for myself. My wish is to get these men and women that have beat us and murdered us not to have the option of a slap on the wrist with a thing called an insanity plea. That judicial systems finally start seeing these crimes as hate crimes. We need to stop giving these people the angle they need to be set free for our deaths.
Lastly with ladies and gentleman that go around tricking men and women on dates. I beg you to think of your actions before you keep practicing this habit. I realize you need to be treated as your gender, and maybe you think in your head you can’t be treated solely as that gender if they know. I assure you this isn’t true! Let’s remember our dead. Let’s remember the beautiful teen Gwen Araujo who played with fire and in the end was burned. No she did not deserve this, she was a teen girl wanting to do what every teen girl does her age. It would be great that we were blessed in that way, but we as transwomen have limitations we need to understand this and embrace this. To protect ourselves. To stop our murders. Let’s stop giving these people of hate an excuse to dismiss who we are so easily by killing us. I am sure I’ll get many debaters on this, saying this is cowardly, but dear it’s smart. Why throw away your life so easily? Why do you feel the need to give these people who you only knew for that instance so much power on who we are? This issue goes on a lot with transmen also tricking women, violence is less in these instances, but please remember Brandon Teena, another young transperson wanting to be viewed as what he was, a man. He wanted to fall in love like everyone does, but loving under false pretenses under any admission will never work out. There are those rare and lucky cases where tricking did turn out good for the transmen and women, but don’t base these rare chances on fact or your fate.
Let’s talk about what we should do. Let’s ignore the people that don’t understand us on the streets, and put our anger towards getting our voices heard politically, by openminded supporters, and by each other. Let’s stop hating on one another and focus this energy on getting transwomen and men jobs, opportunities, and equal rights. Let’s try to figure out a plan to make sex work less of a stigma of what transsexuals are and do. Let transwomen and men that have the means open businesses and hire other transpeople. Many are doing this now, let’s stick to doing this. Let’s work on helping our weak and making them strong, instead of focusing on the people that would rather see us dead. Let’s donate money to activist groups that are fighting for our rights in Washington, in our counties, and in our cities. My wish is to become a more unified, caring, and helping community rather than a community that reads one another, because one girl is less transitioned than the next. My wish is the lover of transwomen and men stand with us to battle discrimination and oppression. My wish is to see less transsexuals having money for sex and more mainstream jobs, even if it’s just stripping. My wish is to bring our sisterhood and brotherhood together instead of transmen being on one side and transwomen on the other. Let’s stop oppression now. Let’s use our voices to uplift, instead of defending all the time. Most of all let’s stop our murders, that’s my wish.
XoXo
Kelly
Stop Oppression. We can do it if we just be ourselves with out word slinging and violence. Why is it we transpeople feel we need to talk back to a group of guys that clocked us in public? Why do we need to escalate it so it’s another transsexuals death in vain? A beautiful individual working her/his way down the path of peace within her/his self. The peace they will never be allowed over an escalated argument or dating a man or woman under false pretenses. I’ll go more into this topic later.
It’s a minute out of our day that we were name called, but we have 23:59 to keep on our path and the rest of our lives. I say let’s bury our pride and worry about ourselves and safety first. Too many transsexuals deaths come from escalating the issue of hate. We think standing up and yelling back at the person/persons emotionally bruising us is going to make them change their mind or change what was said that made us so mad. I can tell you it won’t. I have always believed you can always catch more bees with honey. When we decide to take part in the word slinging it escalates the hate more and gives them the catalyst to make it easier to physically harm us. Who knows if that day it will be a beating or death. Why play with fire people?
I don’t get why we give these people filled with hate so much power over our lives? We should worry more about what we think of ourselves and what our loved ones think, before instigating a mob of haters. So they called us a fag, a man, a woman, a dyke, a pervert, or whatever lame attempt they can throw at us let them have it. In the end we know who we are and what path we are on. Let him have his view, if thats what it takes to keep us safe for another day. We still have our view, he hasn’t taken it from us. The media hasn’t stripped us of who we are, like they’ve done to so many of us. Hold dear to things in our life we value and love. Remember that tomorrow we most likely won’t even remember the incident the day before. This keeps us safe and gives us the time we need to achieve our genders we need to be viewed as, live as, and love as. Escalating hate in an instant we can have this ripped away from us. Remember time is precious, life is precious, and lying on a morgue table still pre-operative is not a wish I have for myself. My wish is to get these men and women that have beat us and murdered us not to have the option of a slap on the wrist with a thing called an insanity plea. That judicial systems finally start seeing these crimes as hate crimes. We need to stop giving these people the angle they need to be set free for our deaths.
Lastly with ladies and gentleman that go around tricking men and women on dates. I beg you to think of your actions before you keep practicing this habit. I realize you need to be treated as your gender, and maybe you think in your head you can’t be treated solely as that gender if they know. I assure you this isn’t true! Let’s remember our dead. Let’s remember the beautiful teen Gwen Araujo who played with fire and in the end was burned. No she did not deserve this, she was a teen girl wanting to do what every teen girl does her age. It would be great that we were blessed in that way, but we as transwomen have limitations we need to understand this and embrace this. To protect ourselves. To stop our murders. Let’s stop giving these people of hate an excuse to dismiss who we are so easily by killing us. I am sure I’ll get many debaters on this, saying this is cowardly, but dear it’s smart. Why throw away your life so easily? Why do you feel the need to give these people who you only knew for that instance so much power on who we are? This issue goes on a lot with transmen also tricking women, violence is less in these instances, but please remember Brandon Teena, another young transperson wanting to be viewed as what he was, a man. He wanted to fall in love like everyone does, but loving under false pretenses under any admission will never work out. There are those rare and lucky cases where tricking did turn out good for the transmen and women, but don’t base these rare chances on fact or your fate.
Let’s talk about what we should do. Let’s ignore the people that don’t understand us on the streets, and put our anger towards getting our voices heard politically, by openminded supporters, and by each other. Let’s stop hating on one another and focus this energy on getting transwomen and men jobs, opportunities, and equal rights. Let’s try to figure out a plan to make sex work less of a stigma of what transsexuals are and do. Let transwomen and men that have the means open businesses and hire other transpeople. Many are doing this now, let’s stick to doing this. Let’s work on helping our weak and making them strong, instead of focusing on the people that would rather see us dead. Let’s donate money to activist groups that are fighting for our rights in Washington, in our counties, and in our cities. My wish is to become a more unified, caring, and helping community rather than a community that reads one another, because one girl is less transitioned than the next. My wish is the lover of transwomen and men stand with us to battle discrimination and oppression. My wish is to see less transsexuals having money for sex and more mainstream jobs, even if it’s just stripping. My wish is to bring our sisterhood and brotherhood together instead of transmen being on one side and transwomen on the other. Let’s stop oppression now. Let’s use our voices to uplift, instead of defending all the time. Most of all let’s stop our murders, that’s my wish.
XoXo
Kelly
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Friday, December 2, 2011
Interview with Teen Sensation Holly Harlow!
Interview with Adult Film Actress and English Teen Sensation Holly Harlow!
Hi Holly! I just began (I hope) a lasting business-ship/friendship with you. I must say you’re appearance is not only beautiful, but your personality also. It shines through with sweetness and consideration for everyone around you. As soon as I saw you on a post by my girl Liberty Harkness I knew big things were in your future. It’s refreshing and humble to hear you don’t quite know it yet. I'm so glad you chose to do this interview with me and to join my cam site.
Hello! First of all I would like to thank you for all the help and exposure that you’re giving me. I too am excited about caming for you it’s been a good experience so far! I am also looking forward to working with you and your husband for a scene, and ensuring a long lasting business-ship/friendship with you! You seem very lovely and been so supportive. I also want to give thanks to Ms. liberty Harkness for introducing me to the ts world. I’m thrilled to be working in the industry.
Awe thanks, no problem Holly! I to will continue to support you and I think our scene together will be hot, hot, hot! When and how did you get started in the business? Is there a story behind it?
It all begun for me when I was a kid. I always felt and dreamed that I wanted to become a pornstar, and I just couldn’t wait until my 18th birthday! As soon as I turned 18 I made a trip from Malta to London for the Television X 15th anniversary Gala. It was so much fun and I was shot by so many paparazzi that stood out to producers. Because as soon as I made the appearance at the event I was tracked down to do my first series on Television X with female British ebony star Kiesha Kane by Mcondo for TVX. The series I starred in was called “Entry Level Whore”. I was elated to do my first scene and that my dream was actually happening! However after I shot my first series I stopped abruptly due to a relationship I was in back in Malta and didn’t feel it was right for the relationship. I was in love and wanted to respect my boyfriend at the time. I recently ended the two year relationship recently and as soon as I was ready I rushed back to England to what I started and realized this is really what I always wanted
Interesting to hear how you began! That must have been thrilling to go to your first adult event and be the talk of it! Rest assure so many guys are thrilled you made the leap back. I think it’s also important you know what you want and it sounds like you always wanted to be in the industry and not doing it for any other reason. How many scenes have you done so far and who do you want to shoot for in the future?
Well so far I have done a total of 13 scenes. I’m hoping to do much more work in the future, since three of them are solo scenes for my website. I would like to work for every site that would have me and work with other girls in the industry. I’m really excited to work with you! Bu also will be working more with Liberty harkness, the legendary Joanna Jet and Sammi Valentine. I get so excited and turned on when I get booked for scenes it makes me feel good to know I please so many watching. I love the feeling of being on a set with cameras all around me catching me in my most erotic sexual acts and so many guys and girls will be getting turned on :). That’s what motivates me.
Ooh a new website coming - guys will be waiting around the block for this! What have you found to be the positives and negatives of the business?
Well one of the positive things is you get paid good money for something that most love doing…SEX hehe! Another positive thing is all the fun and interesting people you get to meet and all the different places you get to travel to...
The negative thing that I am not fond of is how often we adult stars have to be tested, because I hate needles. But at the end of the day I’m glad to know we are being safe as we can. I also don’t like when people look down on you, cause you are a pornstar. We are real people and it’s our job. We are tested and I always try to be professional. I don’t like the bad image that comes along with it, but I see a lot of stars coming out and changing the views slowly but surely. For me though when people look down on me, at the end of the day, I just don’t care! I am happy and I’m making my fans happy and that’s important to me. I live my life for myself and I don’t want to be unhappy, life is short.
When do you think your new website will launch and what will viewers get to see
I am currently working on getting content together for it. It’s a lot of hard work, and I only hope fans appreciate it. I really just want to turn them on; hearing I do turns me on. Motivates me to be dirtier and get more creative to please them continually.
Cool glad to hear I wish you luck on your upcoming site and hope it’s a smooth and steady process! Staying on topic of what your fans will be able to see, you are now signed up as a Kelly's Dreamhouse model and been camming all week and just invested in a HD webcam that will make your shows unreal and crystal clear. We also set you up with the new Gold Show/Party Chat feature that I’m sure a lot of guys will want to take advantage of! What will the guys be able to see with Miss Holly Harlow?
Yes! I’m a http://kellysdreamhouse.com girl now :) ..hehe! They will be able to see my hot hard cock cumming for them, my hot round ass, and my 36c soft perky tits! I will also be playing with my toys my shows and trying to satisfy foot fetishes. I love to cum on cam. Besides that I’m also a good listener and love to get to know my fans and admirers. I want to know their fantasies and toughts and share mine. I want to know what makes them tick and hear of their kinky stories..and I’m excited about offering party chat to the guys! The thought of so many guys watching me at once jerking off to me is such a huge turn on. But not to forget to mention that i love cam2cam for a more personal one on one time. I’m usually on in the morning and at night. So I hope people will stop by and see me!
You are so exotic and have a different look than most models...what is your nationality?
I am a mixed race of Maltese, Irish, and English. I was born and raised on Maltese Island, but now moved to London. I love it here!! I do miss my Maltesers at times:) there are a few guys and girls that are there that are after lil ol’ me that I miss. :)
You are 19 - you transitioned very young. When did you start your transition and any advice to girls?
Yeah, I started at a very young age and luckily I had a very supportive family. I’m honestly very thankful for that blessing. To be clearer I stared my transition when I was 13. I remember my mother was in tears when I first told her, even if she knew it already as I was always feminine. She eventually came to terms and she changed my room and made it all nice and pink and gave me all her support at the age of 14 going on 15. I got my boob job not too long after that my mother gave the permission for. She knew how much i really wanted them. She made that happen for me, so I could be happy. I’m so thankful to her.
My advice for girls, don’t let others get you down! Some people can be nasty and try to put you down for no reason. Out of hate or just to make them feel better about themselves. Be strong, no matter what it gets better eventually even if it takes time. Beauty comes from within remember this. Build your confidence up and stay on track on what matters. Whatever the mind can conceive and believe
you will achieve, you got to believe!
So happy to hear very similar to my life, and great advice my dear! I know you are currently single. Are you looking or just living your life? When I was performing I found that it was hard to find a guy who could get past the image! Have you found it hard to find a guy who will date a girl in the industry?
Yes, I am currently single and loving it! As I said I just ended a two year relationship. So no I’m not really looking at this time, but one never knows when love comes along. I do think it is hard a lot of times for guys to deal with a girl in the industry. A lot of guys will try to avoid it or only a few can really handle it without drama. Although I will be going on a date tomorrow night with a British guy! He’s lovely, and I think it will be fun. So I am open to going on dates.
Ooh exciting for all those British Chaps over there or visitors to your area! Lastly, where can we find you on the internet?
Oh yes this is important, I love speaking and being in contact with all my admirers!
Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/hollyharlowxxx
Blog: http://hollyharlowxxx.blogspot.com/
Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/user/hollyharlowxxx
And of course make sure to bookmark me on Kellys Dreamhouse to know when I’m live!
http://www.kellysdreamhouse.com/cam/HollyHarlow/
And to any men that would like to spoil me my wishlist
http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/W4EQIJSYS5NF/ref=cm_wl_rlist_go_o
Anything else you would like to add or say to your fans and readers?
I would just like to thank everyone for the support and kind messages. I hope to get to know all my admirers more and we have a long love affair together..hee hee
I want to thank you for doing this interview! You are the sweetest! I wish you all the luck on your career and future endeavors!
Hi Holly! I just began (I hope) a lasting business-ship/friendship with you. I must say you’re appearance is not only beautiful, but your personality also. It shines through with sweetness and consideration for everyone around you. As soon as I saw you on a post by my girl Liberty Harkness I knew big things were in your future. It’s refreshing and humble to hear you don’t quite know it yet. I'm so glad you chose to do this interview with me and to join my cam site.
Hello! First of all I would like to thank you for all the help and exposure that you’re giving me. I too am excited about caming for you it’s been a good experience so far! I am also looking forward to working with you and your husband for a scene, and ensuring a long lasting business-ship/friendship with you! You seem very lovely and been so supportive. I also want to give thanks to Ms. liberty Harkness for introducing me to the ts world. I’m thrilled to be working in the industry.
Awe thanks, no problem Holly! I to will continue to support you and I think our scene together will be hot, hot, hot! When and how did you get started in the business? Is there a story behind it?
It all begun for me when I was a kid. I always felt and dreamed that I wanted to become a pornstar, and I just couldn’t wait until my 18th birthday! As soon as I turned 18 I made a trip from Malta to London for the Television X 15th anniversary Gala. It was so much fun and I was shot by so many paparazzi that stood out to producers. Because as soon as I made the appearance at the event I was tracked down to do my first series on Television X with female British ebony star Kiesha Kane by Mcondo for TVX. The series I starred in was called “Entry Level Whore”. I was elated to do my first scene and that my dream was actually happening! However after I shot my first series I stopped abruptly due to a relationship I was in back in Malta and didn’t feel it was right for the relationship. I was in love and wanted to respect my boyfriend at the time. I recently ended the two year relationship recently and as soon as I was ready I rushed back to England to what I started and realized this is really what I always wanted
Interesting to hear how you began! That must have been thrilling to go to your first adult event and be the talk of it! Rest assure so many guys are thrilled you made the leap back. I think it’s also important you know what you want and it sounds like you always wanted to be in the industry and not doing it for any other reason. How many scenes have you done so far and who do you want to shoot for in the future?
Well so far I have done a total of 13 scenes. I’m hoping to do much more work in the future, since three of them are solo scenes for my website. I would like to work for every site that would have me and work with other girls in the industry. I’m really excited to work with you! Bu also will be working more with Liberty harkness, the legendary Joanna Jet and Sammi Valentine. I get so excited and turned on when I get booked for scenes it makes me feel good to know I please so many watching. I love the feeling of being on a set with cameras all around me catching me in my most erotic sexual acts and so many guys and girls will be getting turned on :). That’s what motivates me.
Ooh a new website coming - guys will be waiting around the block for this! What have you found to be the positives and negatives of the business?
Well one of the positive things is you get paid good money for something that most love doing…SEX hehe! Another positive thing is all the fun and interesting people you get to meet and all the different places you get to travel to...
The negative thing that I am not fond of is how often we adult stars have to be tested, because I hate needles. But at the end of the day I’m glad to know we are being safe as we can. I also don’t like when people look down on you, cause you are a pornstar. We are real people and it’s our job. We are tested and I always try to be professional. I don’t like the bad image that comes along with it, but I see a lot of stars coming out and changing the views slowly but surely. For me though when people look down on me, at the end of the day, I just don’t care! I am happy and I’m making my fans happy and that’s important to me. I live my life for myself and I don’t want to be unhappy, life is short.
When do you think your new website will launch and what will viewers get to see
I am currently working on getting content together for it. It’s a lot of hard work, and I only hope fans appreciate it. I really just want to turn them on; hearing I do turns me on. Motivates me to be dirtier and get more creative to please them continually.
Cool glad to hear I wish you luck on your upcoming site and hope it’s a smooth and steady process! Staying on topic of what your fans will be able to see, you are now signed up as a Kelly's Dreamhouse model and been camming all week and just invested in a HD webcam that will make your shows unreal and crystal clear. We also set you up with the new Gold Show/Party Chat feature that I’m sure a lot of guys will want to take advantage of! What will the guys be able to see with Miss Holly Harlow?
Yes! I’m a http://kellysdreamhouse.com girl now :) ..hehe! They will be able to see my hot hard cock cumming for them, my hot round ass, and my 36c soft perky tits! I will also be playing with my toys my shows and trying to satisfy foot fetishes. I love to cum on cam. Besides that I’m also a good listener and love to get to know my fans and admirers. I want to know their fantasies and toughts and share mine. I want to know what makes them tick and hear of their kinky stories..and I’m excited about offering party chat to the guys! The thought of so many guys watching me at once jerking off to me is such a huge turn on. But not to forget to mention that i love cam2cam for a more personal one on one time. I’m usually on in the morning and at night. So I hope people will stop by and see me!
You are so exotic and have a different look than most models...what is your nationality?
I am a mixed race of Maltese, Irish, and English. I was born and raised on Maltese Island, but now moved to London. I love it here!! I do miss my Maltesers at times:) there are a few guys and girls that are there that are after lil ol’ me that I miss. :)
You are 19 - you transitioned very young. When did you start your transition and any advice to girls?
Yeah, I started at a very young age and luckily I had a very supportive family. I’m honestly very thankful for that blessing. To be clearer I stared my transition when I was 13. I remember my mother was in tears when I first told her, even if she knew it already as I was always feminine. She eventually came to terms and she changed my room and made it all nice and pink and gave me all her support at the age of 14 going on 15. I got my boob job not too long after that my mother gave the permission for. She knew how much i really wanted them. She made that happen for me, so I could be happy. I’m so thankful to her.
My advice for girls, don’t let others get you down! Some people can be nasty and try to put you down for no reason. Out of hate or just to make them feel better about themselves. Be strong, no matter what it gets better eventually even if it takes time. Beauty comes from within remember this. Build your confidence up and stay on track on what matters. Whatever the mind can conceive and believe
you will achieve, you got to believe!
So happy to hear very similar to my life, and great advice my dear! I know you are currently single. Are you looking or just living your life? When I was performing I found that it was hard to find a guy who could get past the image! Have you found it hard to find a guy who will date a girl in the industry?
Yes, I am currently single and loving it! As I said I just ended a two year relationship. So no I’m not really looking at this time, but one never knows when love comes along. I do think it is hard a lot of times for guys to deal with a girl in the industry. A lot of guys will try to avoid it or only a few can really handle it without drama. Although I will be going on a date tomorrow night with a British guy! He’s lovely, and I think it will be fun. So I am open to going on dates.
Ooh exciting for all those British Chaps over there or visitors to your area! Lastly, where can we find you on the internet?
Oh yes this is important, I love speaking and being in contact with all my admirers!
Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/hollyharlowxxx
Blog: http://hollyharlowxxx.blogspot.com/
Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/user/hollyharlowxxx
And of course make sure to bookmark me on Kellys Dreamhouse to know when I’m live!
http://www.kellysdreamhouse.com/cam/HollyHarlow/
And to any men that would like to spoil me my wishlist
http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/W4EQIJSYS5NF/ref=cm_wl_rlist_go_o
Anything else you would like to add or say to your fans and readers?
I would just like to thank everyone for the support and kind messages. I hope to get to know all my admirers more and we have a long love affair together..hee hee
I want to thank you for doing this interview! You are the sweetest! I wish you all the luck on your career and future endeavors!
Sunday, October 16, 2011
My Second Time Roasting Chicken :)
So this is my second time roasting a whole chicken and I did so well this time!
I had some help from my friend Angie who told me to put a whole apple into the bird…Mia Isabella also suggested I put a cut up orange into the bird…I will try that next time :)…Steven from Grooby.com or Shemaleyum told me to make sure the breast is down - I knew that, but a very good tip.
So many people have so many different ways to roasting chicken…some use some white wine..but I put about a 1/2 inch of organic chicken broth and a little bit of balsamic vinegar at the bottom of my pan…and then I cut up organic potatoes and carrots at the bottom…
Then underneath the skin I took melted butter with pepper and other seasoning mixed in it to give it a nice taste and also dripped some of it into the bird itself..
Ending by putting a whole apple in it
I set it at 350 degrees for a 5.5 lbs bird for 2 hours and 5 minutes
And it came out so soft - so yummy - the vegetables were scrumptious too!
Oh yeah I forgot I soaked my bird in cold salt water for an hour in the fridge..about 1/4 cup of table salt…I changed the water after a half hour. To make sure bacteria didn’t grow…then after that I rinsed the bird off with cold water and then dried it off with papertowels before I started seasoning it..
I also cooked mine with the pan lid on the whole time..some cook it with out the pan lid on for 15 minutes for browinging..but I don’t see the point..
Mine brown just fine as you can see!
I really suggest you try this - it’s so good
We also get our meat directly from a farm…if you are in the Chicago Area..check out Wallace Farms :)[gallery]
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
My response to Herman Caine on the View
I just finished watching Mr. Herman Cain on the View. Of course, I was upset when he said that it is his personal belief that Gays choose to be Gay. I had to leave a lengthy comment on the View's blog as well as on Mr. Cain's website. Below is my comment:
I just finished watching Mr.Cain on the View. His comment about Gays choosing to be Gay is offensive. His reply to Joy for her to show him scientific proof that being Gay is not a choice proves to me how uneducated he is on this subject. There have been many scientific studies that have concluded that there is a strong genetic component to homosexuality. I would like to ask Mr. Cain when did he choose to be heterosexual? Or was he born that way?! I also want him to show scientific proof that says he was born heterosexual! Mr. Cain's words that Gays choose their lifestyle empowers those individuals that bully and ostracize young gay children. It empowers all those people who say Gays are not worthy of the same rights and privileges of Straight US citizens. Mr. Cain, I want a President who is progressive on the social issues as well as the fiscal issues. You do not represent that type of President for me so therefore I will not give you my vote. However, I will give you some advise. Gays are a minority in this country and in this world. Because of this fact, it is easy to dismiss them and create laws that outwardly discriminate against them. DADT and DOMA are both laws aimed to disenfranchise this community of US citizens. My advise is for you to be more educated and more open to the civil rights causes of the Gay community. As an African-American, I would have suspected you to be more sensitive to discriminating words. Young Gay Americans are killing themselves because words like yours tell them they are not worthy. Another advise, be very careful of the words you choose to say on national television! One last thing, I believe that you and your fellow GOP candidates owe the young heroic Gay soldier that "Came Out" to you during the last Tea Party debate and asked you about DADT an apology. This man who is risking his life by serving our country was booed by the audience. You and your fellow GOP candidates stood there in silence. Your silence empowered the audience. I was beyond appalled by the display of carelessness. Not one of you had the decency let alone the courage to reprimand the audience for their unruly behavior.
Respectfully submitted,
Kelly Shore
Chicago, IL
Monday, September 26, 2011
Despair and Philosophical thinking
You ever have those moments where you question life……what it all means…and why sometimes life is just wanting to beat you down over and over again with a stick…that as hard as you try to be decent and nice…you lose family, friends, loved ones and you wonder does your life have meaning…have you really touched that many people..that your life would matter…I guess the fates decide that after your gone…I know death well…and I don’t think the people I lost ever truly knew how much they meant to me…feeling kind of philosophical and questioning life in general…
I always try to be optimistic and look on the good side of everything - but sometimes you have those days where nothing has gone right - you feel lost - I feel lost probably more cause I can’t dial my mom up when I have moments like these and I haven’t really felt “security” in life till I met my husband and step-daughter. They make me feel I belong to something or someone.
I have my siblings sure, but since my mom’s passing things from high school on weren’t the same. She was the rock that held us all together. And my family are busy a lot with their families.
I just question life sometimes that’s all - the meaning - I try so hard to be good but I’m not perfect and I do stupid things and I fail a lot at life like anyone else. And what I do to comfort myself is think of my husband and step-daughter.
But I lay here thinking about my mom and it’s so heartbreaking when I see others take their moms for granted. And it makes me angry I can’t pick up the phone to vent or ask for her to talk to me about anything or to tell me everything will be alright or security…anything…
I’ve done things in my life I regret and probably wouldn’t of happen if my mom and dad were here today….I did things to survive….I did things I wish I could take back..but alas that’s life….sometimes I wish I was normal or could go back to when my mom was alive and I had not a care in the world.
My husband has been my rock, and I try my hardest to show him I appreciate it. But alas sometimes I wonder if I have affected many people’s lives…like my mom did. I’m just feel crappy and philosophical tonight and the meaning of life in general…sorry for the depressing entry…but I like to be honest with my fans and let you in on me and how I’m feeling…
I always try to be optimistic and look on the good side of everything - but sometimes you have those days where nothing has gone right - you feel lost - I feel lost probably more cause I can’t dial my mom up when I have moments like these and I haven’t really felt “security” in life till I met my husband and step-daughter. They make me feel I belong to something or someone.
I have my siblings sure, but since my mom’s passing things from high school on weren’t the same. She was the rock that held us all together. And my family are busy a lot with their families.
I just question life sometimes that’s all - the meaning - I try so hard to be good but I’m not perfect and I do stupid things and I fail a lot at life like anyone else. And what I do to comfort myself is think of my husband and step-daughter.
But I lay here thinking about my mom and it’s so heartbreaking when I see others take their moms for granted. And it makes me angry I can’t pick up the phone to vent or ask for her to talk to me about anything or to tell me everything will be alright or security…anything…
I’ve done things in my life I regret and probably wouldn’t of happen if my mom and dad were here today….I did things to survive….I did things I wish I could take back..but alas that’s life….sometimes I wish I was normal or could go back to when my mom was alive and I had not a care in the world.
My husband has been my rock, and I try my hardest to show him I appreciate it. But alas sometimes I wonder if I have affected many people’s lives…like my mom did. I’m just feel crappy and philosophical tonight and the meaning of life in general…sorry for the depressing entry…but I like to be honest with my fans and let you in on me and how I’m feeling…
Thursday, September 8, 2011
We Can Do Hard Things
We CAN do hard things...
life is hard.
things go wrong.
your heart will hurt.
we will get sick again.
someone will make us mad and hurt our feelings.
and get frustrated.
If you watch the news all the time you will get angry or depressed.
(mostly likely both)
there really isn't an EASY button for anything worthwhile.
Hard things, difficult things, things that hurt...
these make us stronger, they make us into people that say, "you know what? I've been through a lot, and these little problems are not going to stop me."
We can DO hard things.
We can survive painful situations and come out even more beautiful for having been broken into tinier, smaller, and more light reflective little pieces. Remember my disco ball saying- it's like the shattered mirror that is more sparkly because it's been broken.
You can either sit and dwell on all the hard things in your life and keep re-living all the awful things in your life OR
you can learn to say, this isn't gonna get me down...instead of dwelling on problems or all the bad stuff, I'm going to stop and start thinking about all my good stuff.
because:
WE CAN DO HARD THINGS.
WE CAN. WE ARE IN THIS WORLD TOGETHER.
We can survive.
We can choose to let ourselves love someone new and not people that hurt us, cheat on us, or try to hurt us.
We can leave an abusive relationship.
We can heal from wounds by people that have hurt us.
We can grow stronger and more understanding from the hard things we've been through.
We can grow better, not bitter.
We can find a way to take care of our family.
We can choose to forgive people- it frees you from walking around with the pain of what they've done to you.
We can choose wisdom and stay away from those that have hurt us.
We can be the change in our families.
We can spread light to a dark world.
We can love someone and forgive them for awful things they've done.
We can smile more.
We can give people compliments more -just watch what happens when you do.
We can be happy and dance with joy.
We can cry out to for help us and let others hold us up when we can't go on.
We can realize that we have the power to have an imperfectly, awesome life.
And we can realize that the most beautiful lives aren't the perfect ones...
the most beautiful lives are when people had, have or are going through hard things and they become the coal...the coal that goes through so much pressure, it turns into a diamond.
Just like when we work are muscles get sore...they tear, the very muscle fiber gets torn..but after it heals, the muscle become bigger, stronger...ready to do "harder" things than it did before.
We are like that too....we are going to have bigger hearts and stronger minds for all the tears in our heart...
We are in this together, you're not alone. Know that even though things seem hard, tell yourself:
WE CAN DO HARD THINGS! Bring it on baby! We can do it! Nothin's gonna stop us, scare us, or make us give up.
We Can do it. You can do it! I'm cheering you on, sending you love, and a whole lot of you are not alone.
I love you AND We Can Do Hard Things. Decide today to live like you mean it.
love, hugs, and if no one told you you're awesome today and that they love you:
"You are so awesome and I love you soooo muchy much!"... Love Kelly
life is hard.
things go wrong.
your heart will hurt.
we will get sick again.
someone will make us mad and hurt our feelings.
and get frustrated.
If you watch the news all the time you will get angry or depressed.
(mostly likely both)
there really isn't an EASY button for anything worthwhile.
Hard things, difficult things, things that hurt...
these make us stronger, they make us into people that say, "you know what? I've been through a lot, and these little problems are not going to stop me."
We can DO hard things.
We can survive painful situations and come out even more beautiful for having been broken into tinier, smaller, and more light reflective little pieces. Remember my disco ball saying- it's like the shattered mirror that is more sparkly because it's been broken.
You can either sit and dwell on all the hard things in your life and keep re-living all the awful things in your life OR
you can learn to say, this isn't gonna get me down...instead of dwelling on problems or all the bad stuff, I'm going to stop and start thinking about all my good stuff.
because:
WE CAN DO HARD THINGS.
WE CAN. WE ARE IN THIS WORLD TOGETHER.
We can survive.
We can choose to let ourselves love someone new and not people that hurt us, cheat on us, or try to hurt us.
We can leave an abusive relationship.
We can heal from wounds by people that have hurt us.
We can grow stronger and more understanding from the hard things we've been through.
We can grow better, not bitter.
We can find a way to take care of our family.
We can choose to forgive people- it frees you from walking around with the pain of what they've done to you.
We can choose wisdom and stay away from those that have hurt us.
We can be the change in our families.
We can spread light to a dark world.
We can love someone and forgive them for awful things they've done.
We can smile more.
We can give people compliments more -just watch what happens when you do.
We can be happy and dance with joy.
We can cry out to for help us and let others hold us up when we can't go on.
We can realize that we have the power to have an imperfectly, awesome life.
And we can realize that the most beautiful lives aren't the perfect ones...
the most beautiful lives are when people had, have or are going through hard things and they become the coal...the coal that goes through so much pressure, it turns into a diamond.
Live like you mean it.
Just like when we work are muscles get sore...they tear, the very muscle fiber gets torn..but after it heals, the muscle become bigger, stronger...ready to do "harder" things than it did before.
We are like that too....we are going to have bigger hearts and stronger minds for all the tears in our heart...
We are in this together, you're not alone. Know that even though things seem hard, tell yourself:
WE CAN DO HARD THINGS! Bring it on baby! We can do it! Nothin's gonna stop us, scare us, or make us give up.
We Can do it. You can do it! I'm cheering you on, sending you love, and a whole lot of you are not alone.
I love you AND We Can Do Hard Things. Decide today to live like you mean it.
love, hugs, and if no one told you you're awesome today and that they love you:
"You are so awesome and I love you soooo muchy much!"... Love Kelly
WEIRD!
to me….
weird is a compliment
I’d rather be different and “strangely out of place”
than so “common” that I would blend in
wherever I was…..
we are all sensitive (even big tough guys are usually the most sensitive, they get all offended easily, because they got “hurt”, AKA disrespected), serious, talkative, quiet, calm, excited, happy, then sad, cheery then not….
There have been moments in my life that were sad and if it weren’t for me being raised in a silly, “dancing in the kitchen”, singing, laughing, talking in random accents (my mom was the queen of the british accent…even my Nana would tell us the best stories in accents)…I don’t know if I would’ve made it through some of the crappy moments that I did….My great gramma always said I reminded her of one of her many sisters because I’m always smiling and laughing…my grammy always told me to dance whenever I heard music…and I DO! It keeps me happy!
I wish more people knew how to have fun and enjoy it! Not be afraid to be zaney or goofy!
Please spread some laughter and smiles…and be weird and silly for me, if not for you! ha ha ha
Enjoy some silly-weirdsmobile (oldy but goodie) moments with yours truly….K-dizzle
weird is a compliment
I’d rather be different and “strangely out of place”
than so “common” that I would blend in
wherever I was…..
we are all sensitive (even big tough guys are usually the most sensitive, they get all offended easily, because they got “hurt”, AKA disrespected), serious, talkative, quiet, calm, excited, happy, then sad, cheery then not….
There have been moments in my life that were sad and if it weren’t for me being raised in a silly, “dancing in the kitchen”, singing, laughing, talking in random accents (my mom was the queen of the british accent…even my Nana would tell us the best stories in accents)…I don’t know if I would’ve made it through some of the crappy moments that I did….My great gramma always said I reminded her of one of her many sisters because I’m always smiling and laughing…my grammy always told me to dance whenever I heard music…and I DO! It keeps me happy!
I wish more people knew how to have fun and enjoy it! Not be afraid to be zaney or goofy!
Please spread some laughter and smiles…and be weird and silly for me, if not for you! ha ha ha
Enjoy some silly-weirdsmobile (oldy but goodie) moments with yours truly….K-dizzle
Friday, August 5, 2011
Things I've learned in the last 29 years
Things change. Sometimes for the better, worse or just different. Learning that it's just part of life will save you A LOT of stress and frustration.
Choosing to forgive isn't fun. But it's worth it. (Sometimes you have to forgive to keep a good person in your life)
Stomping on the "Faith" gas is MUCH better than stomping on "Fear" break!
If you have a problem with food, stay out of the kitchen!
I can't always trust my feelings, because I can feel 20 different ways about the same thing in 5 minutes.
I can NOT feel like doing the "right thing" but STILL CHOOSE to do it.
No human has all the answers. Not even mom.
Asparagus makes your pee stink!
We get a lot more CHOICES than we think we do. Choose wisely.
And for my most annoying habit, being anxious...I've clung to happy memories which ALWAYS calms my fidgety head, heart and soul.
I've learned that life's plan is better than my plan. And I want to see what the plan ends up to be - maybe it's more than I want my plan.
That's it. All my "smarts" for this life so far. I hope you find a little helpful diamond among the rumble that you can take with you!
That being kind doesn't always pay off, but it makes you feel good!
That love and relationships take a lot of work - a lot of patience - and a lot of compromise!
Huge buckets of love, over flowing, and splashing everywhere,
Kelly
Choosing to forgive isn't fun. But it's worth it. (Sometimes you have to forgive to keep a good person in your life)
Stomping on the "Faith" gas is MUCH better than stomping on "Fear" break!
If you have a problem with food, stay out of the kitchen!
I can't always trust my feelings, because I can feel 20 different ways about the same thing in 5 minutes.
I can NOT feel like doing the "right thing" but STILL CHOOSE to do it.
No human has all the answers. Not even mom.
Asparagus makes your pee stink!
We get a lot more CHOICES than we think we do. Choose wisely.
And for my most annoying habit, being anxious...I've clung to happy memories which ALWAYS calms my fidgety head, heart and soul.
I've learned that life's plan is better than my plan. And I want to see what the plan ends up to be - maybe it's more than I want my plan.
That's it. All my "smarts" for this life so far. I hope you find a little helpful diamond among the rumble that you can take with you!
That being kind doesn't always pay off, but it makes you feel good!
That love and relationships take a lot of work - a lot of patience - and a lot of compromise!
Huge buckets of love, over flowing, and splashing everywhere,
Kelly
A great read for all women into men or raising a boy into a man :)
I have to honestly say that this book is a MUST read for any woman who is married to a man, dating a man, wanting a man or has a little man she is raising of her own!
I’ve read other books on relationships, the different needs of men and women, but by far this little book is a power packed page turner!
Everything in the book is “real” stuff. She interviewed over a thousand guys and then gives you the results of her research…she asks stuff that your man probably won’t answer truthfully, even if you tried to ask. Ex: what exactly happened in their head after that mini skirt walked in front of them…and it’s based on statistics so you get an understanding of what the majority of men thought, and what the few minority had to say.
And I like to use President Reagan's line "trust but verify." So I read a few of the questions and results to my own man, and he agreed her research and conclusions. This alone is astonishing because my man usually doesn't agree with much. And what was surprising to me was how much I DIDN'T know about how men think, after all I've been married to one for 3 years, you'd think I would have picked some clues up by then--nope! But thanks to Mrs. Feldhahn, I'm getting clued in!
I know you’ll be blessed by this book as I have been, and the man (or men) in your life will thank you for “finally getting it” puns totally intended! Ha ha ha!
Happy Reading,
Kelly
Sunday, July 31, 2011
When Do You Press The Override Button?
For me, it’s most of the time. My feelings lead me toward a dangerous path more often then not. Just think of the many feelings we have on a daily basis (just a few common ones): anger, contempt, jealousy, lust, rage, anxiety, annoyance, hatred, embarrassment, loneliness, pity, pride, guilt, despair, disappointment. You might think, well those are all the bad feelings…and yes, you are correct. Those are typically the kind that give us the most trouble!
Also, I can feel about 20 different ways about the same thing in a single day. This a clue that my feelings are that reliable. It reminds me of that old saying, “feelings are fickle”
(Def. of Fickle from Dictionary.com: unstable, unsteady, variable, capricious, fitful).
For example, when somone is really sick with bulimia, and they experience any one of these feelings—they send them into a desperate binge and purge cycle. We see this with other people who will say things like, “I need a drink.” They are allowing their feelings to rule their decisions. I have made many poor choices because I thought that my FEELINGS were right, rather than testing them and seeing how they measured up.
When we ARE:
Angry
BE ANGRY, but do not relinquish yourself to all your anger and don't do anything crazy.
So we CAN be angry, but what we DO with it matters. I still get angry, but I tell myself you can handle this and don't take it out on others. You can replace “my saying” with whatever you struggle with. You can control your emotions if you try.
Lonely
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified to be alone. You must enjoy your own company and love yourself before you can have a healthy relationship with others.
Anxious
We don’t have to hang on to that yucky-ness of anxiety. Talk about it and relinquish it to others who care about you, I’m so thankful I have somewhere to put it rather than wear it around all day and be miserable.
The best news is that we can CHOOSE to still do the right thing, even if it FEELS wrong.
When you are in the heat of the intense FEELINGS, call out to a loved one for their strength to overcome. Don't be scared to ask for help.
I know this has helped me a lot - asking for help and confiding in people I love!
Big Override Buttons,
Kelly
Also, I can feel about 20 different ways about the same thing in a single day. This a clue that my feelings are that reliable. It reminds me of that old saying, “feelings are fickle”
(Def. of Fickle from Dictionary.com: unstable, unsteady, variable, capricious, fitful).
For example, when somone is really sick with bulimia, and they experience any one of these feelings—they send them into a desperate binge and purge cycle. We see this with other people who will say things like, “I need a drink.” They are allowing their feelings to rule their decisions. I have made many poor choices because I thought that my FEELINGS were right, rather than testing them and seeing how they measured up.
When we ARE:
Angry
BE ANGRY, but do not relinquish yourself to all your anger and don't do anything crazy.
So we CAN be angry, but what we DO with it matters. I still get angry, but I tell myself you can handle this and don't take it out on others. You can replace “my saying” with whatever you struggle with. You can control your emotions if you try.
Lonely
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified to be alone. You must enjoy your own company and love yourself before you can have a healthy relationship with others.
Anxious
We don’t have to hang on to that yucky-ness of anxiety. Talk about it and relinquish it to others who care about you, I’m so thankful I have somewhere to put it rather than wear it around all day and be miserable.
The best news is that we can CHOOSE to still do the right thing, even if it FEELS wrong.
When you are in the heat of the intense FEELINGS, call out to a loved one for their strength to overcome. Don't be scared to ask for help.
I know this has helped me a lot - asking for help and confiding in people I love!
Big Override Buttons,
Kelly
Monday, July 11, 2011
My Favorite Things For July!!
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drum roll please......
Here I have the my June Favorite things...from nail polish and strips tp fav eye shadow palettes and phone!
www.iviscents.com
Girl Powder Lip Gloss:
http://girlpowder.myshopify.com/products/girl-powder-active-lip-gloss
Nailtini Cocktail Napkins - natural nail removers-
http://www.tinibeauty.com/products/the_mani_pedi_bar_cocktail_napkins.cfm
Leopard Nail Sticker Decal Polish Strips from Sephora and OPI:
http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P288816
Roller Girl Nail Polish Set from Urban Decay:http://www.urbandecay.com/rollergirl-nail-kit/301,default,pd.html?dwvar_301_c...
Urban Decay Naked Palette:
http://www.urbandecay.com/naked-palette-eyeshadow/245,default,pd.html
LipSurgeance Lip Stains:
http://tartecosmetics.com/tarte-item-lipsurgence-natural-matte-lip-tint
BEN NYE GLAM PALETTE ESP-954
(this palette is a beauty investments! But the size of the shadows is huge and you get 12 so that's only about $5.80 per shadow..and they are so amazingly pigmented and completely MATTE...no sparkle, shimmer, or frost at all!!) My sister and cousin both have these and said they don't even need to use any other eyeshadows!
I found some in the US here:
http://www.sillyfarm.com/store/index.php?p=product&id=4296&parent=728
for my UK lovies, you can get them here:
http://www.performerszone.com/acatalog/copy_of_Lips__Eyes__Cheeks.html
Benefit Cream Shadow in Birthday Suit:
http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P181807
Make-Up Forever Aqua Lip Liners in 8c (red), 16c (hot pink fuschia), 18c (coral), 17c (bright orange):
http://www.makeupforever.com/products/lips/lip-liner/aqua-lip.html
drum roll please......
Here I have the my June Favorite things...from nail polish and strips tp fav eye shadow palettes and phone!
www.iviscents.com
Girl Powder Lip Gloss:
http://girlpowder.myshopify.com/products/girl-powder-active-lip-gloss
Nailtini Cocktail Napkins - natural nail removers-
http://www.tinibeauty.com/products/the_mani_pedi_bar_cocktail_napkins.cfm
Leopard Nail Sticker Decal Polish Strips from Sephora and OPI:
http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P288816
Roller Girl Nail Polish Set from Urban Decay:http://www.urbandecay.com/rollergirl-nail-kit/301,default,pd.html?dwvar_301_c...
Urban Decay Naked Palette:
http://www.urbandecay.com/naked-palette-eyeshadow/245,default,pd.html
LipSurgeance Lip Stains:
http://tartecosmetics.com/tarte-item-lipsurgence-natural-matte-lip-tint
BEN NYE GLAM PALETTE ESP-954
(this palette is a beauty investments! But the size of the shadows is huge and you get 12 so that's only about $5.80 per shadow..and they are so amazingly pigmented and completely MATTE...no sparkle, shimmer, or frost at all!!) My sister and cousin both have these and said they don't even need to use any other eyeshadows!
I found some in the US here:
http://www.sillyfarm.com/store/index.php?p=product&id=4296&parent=728
for my UK lovies, you can get them here:
http://www.performerszone.com/acatalog/copy_of_Lips__Eyes__Cheeks.html
Benefit Cream Shadow in Birthday Suit:
http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P181807
Make-Up Forever Aqua Lip Liners in 8c (red), 16c (hot pink fuschia), 18c (coral), 17c (bright orange):
http://www.makeupforever.com/products/lips/lip-liner/aqua-lip.html
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Enjoy,
LOVE KELLY!
How To Get Rid of Mosquito Bites!
It's that time of year again!
Rule #1: DON'T SHAVE A MOSQUITO BITE OFF!!!!
This was a total accident....I forgot to be careful around my mosquito bite!
So here's some DIY Mosquito Bite Soothing Recipes:
(the nasty source....get your proboscis away from me!)
If you have ever been a "blood-buffet" for mosquitos, and didn't realize you had hung your OPEN for breakfast-lunch-dinner sign to all pesky mosquitos, and have some beyond itchy bites, here's some remedies!
HOME REMEDIES FOR MOSQUITO BITES:
(TRY ONE TRY ALL!)
WHAT I USED LAST NIGHT (when I was about to scratch my skin off!)
Mix a little paste of water and Baking Soda. Cover mosquito bite. Then I put a band-aid on top to make sure it didn't come off.
Not only did it stop the itching but it made the redness and swelling go away! No itching yet and it's been all night and I took a shower.
Other All Natural Mosquito Bite Remedies:
(it's at least worth a try!)
SALT-
simply moisten the area and rub salt on bite area
-people say it stops itching immediately-
ONION-
A freshly cut onion, quickly applied to a sting will prevent swelling and redness, and stop the pain. Onions have anti-microbial properties- even good for blemishes. But it's the same reason why I don't eat raw onions that have been sitting out or at salad bars, anymore. Onions absorb bacteria and odors. People even cut onions and leave them out in rooms where people are sick, to naturally absorb all the virus.
WITCH HAZEL & WATER-
you can try using Witch Hazel instead of water to make the paste with Baking Soda.
APPLE CIDER VINEGAR-
Rub Apple Cider Vinegar directly onto bites.
TEA TREE OIL & ALOE VERA-
mix the two together and cover the bite area. The mixture will soothe bug bites, rashes and help prevent infection.
TOOTHPASTE-
but it only works if you use the right toothpaste...it should be one of the "white" paste looking types (not a clear gel kind). It will help remove the inflammation and itch.
*put a band-aid on top to make sure you don't get toothpaste "crumbs" everywhere.
I'm sure there are many more...but here's just a few to help you not scratch your skin raw and get a little relief from those pesky mosquitos!
the mosquito cafe, Kelly
Monday, June 20, 2011
Changing the way you see yourself...From Hate To Love
I spent many years hating who I was. I looked in the mirror and only saw imperfect, gross, and ugly staring back at me.
Here’s the other edge to the double edge sword of “hating yourself”—which is that you hate everybody else too. This is because you can only give away what you have. All I had was hate for me, and that’s all I had to give away. I remember having a lot word vomit about a lot of people out of jealousy when younger. I am so glad I'm over that stage of my life.
So how do you stop hating yourself when you can’t buy a new life, body, eyes, thighs or whatever it is that you hate about yourself? It begins with the inside. Why? Because finding redeeming qualities and personality that stand out can make anyone beautiful. I've come across a lot of "beautiful people" with really horrible attitudes and personalities that people just hate. I have also come across people with beautiful personalities and attitudes about life who aren't attractive that seem to attract people like light to a moth. But remember this also takes believing in yourself and surrounding yourself with positive people. As well as accepting you and being the best you can be!
Remember love is blind for a reason. Not some crazy self absorbed thing, but true love is: (I know this is a bible verse (I'm an atheist), but it's still one of my favorite quotes from when I was a child)
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
This is the love that you nee to give yourself, and when you do — you are filled on the inside. And with that loving heart and new attitude towards yourself is HOW we are able to show real love to others. Because first we must give love to ourselves, then we may give of it freely to others. Until then you will have superficial relationships with lovers and friends. You'll be infused with jealousy which will cause you to gossip, hate, and be low and mean to others.
I am hoping for every pair of eyes that reads this. That you will fill yourself with love in every area of your life that has self hate, and that an attitude of gratitude wells up on the inside and restoration is done INSIDE so that you can give love on the OUTSIDE!
Find outlets - speak to someone about how you feel whether it be family, friends, or if you believe in God - confide in him. Realize that these hurt feelings and self hate need to be flushed out! Surround yourself with positive people and cut out the negative people who make you feel bad about yourself.
Just a tip what I have done for years. Everyday after I shower and still naked, I tell myself I'm beautiful over and over again in the mirror about 20 times. Then I dance to a few of my favorite songs to lift my spirits. It has helped a lot. Find what helps you!
Don't be afraid to confide your deepest feelings into someone you love - they are there to be an ear! It's okay to hurt - we all do! GOOD LUCK!
A ten gallon bucket of love,
Kelly
PS: Remember to Speak this out loud until you believe it, “I'm beautiful and deserve to be loved and I love myself!” because it’s the TRUTH!
Here’s the other edge to the double edge sword of “hating yourself”—which is that you hate everybody else too. This is because you can only give away what you have. All I had was hate for me, and that’s all I had to give away. I remember having a lot word vomit about a lot of people out of jealousy when younger. I am so glad I'm over that stage of my life.
So how do you stop hating yourself when you can’t buy a new life, body, eyes, thighs or whatever it is that you hate about yourself? It begins with the inside. Why? Because finding redeeming qualities and personality that stand out can make anyone beautiful. I've come across a lot of "beautiful people" with really horrible attitudes and personalities that people just hate. I have also come across people with beautiful personalities and attitudes about life who aren't attractive that seem to attract people like light to a moth. But remember this also takes believing in yourself and surrounding yourself with positive people. As well as accepting you and being the best you can be!
Remember love is blind for a reason. Not some crazy self absorbed thing, but true love is: (I know this is a bible verse (I'm an atheist), but it's still one of my favorite quotes from when I was a child)
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
This is the love that you nee to give yourself, and when you do — you are filled on the inside. And with that loving heart and new attitude towards yourself is HOW we are able to show real love to others. Because first we must give love to ourselves, then we may give of it freely to others. Until then you will have superficial relationships with lovers and friends. You'll be infused with jealousy which will cause you to gossip, hate, and be low and mean to others.
I am hoping for every pair of eyes that reads this. That you will fill yourself with love in every area of your life that has self hate, and that an attitude of gratitude wells up on the inside and restoration is done INSIDE so that you can give love on the OUTSIDE!
Find outlets - speak to someone about how you feel whether it be family, friends, or if you believe in God - confide in him. Realize that these hurt feelings and self hate need to be flushed out! Surround yourself with positive people and cut out the negative people who make you feel bad about yourself.
Just a tip what I have done for years. Everyday after I shower and still naked, I tell myself I'm beautiful over and over again in the mirror about 20 times. Then I dance to a few of my favorite songs to lift my spirits. It has helped a lot. Find what helps you!
Don't be afraid to confide your deepest feelings into someone you love - they are there to be an ear! It's okay to hurt - we all do! GOOD LUCK!
A ten gallon bucket of love,
Kelly
PS: Remember to Speak this out loud until you believe it, “I'm beautiful and deserve to be loved and I love myself!” because it’s the TRUTH!
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Cloud-spiration
The other day I walking to the living room... and this sunset "treat-for-eyes" stopped me in my steps and made me think. I started thinking about how the sunset doesn't look like this without the clouds. It's just plain and grey. BUT....with the clouds, the sun has something to soak up and reflect this beautiful color and light. And that is how our lives are too! "without the clouds in our life, we wouldn't have beautiful sunsets of inspiration and beauty!
No matter what is going on in your life:
Relationship problems, heartbreak, loss. financial troubles, feelings of hopelessness, loneliness, feeling out of contro,l family problems or whatever they case may be! Be encouraged by these stories of "storm clouds" in people's lives, that have really been beautiful sunsets of opportunity just waiting for the sun to go down to make them shine.
A single and broke mama, who started making and selling sandwiches out of her home because she suffered from Agoraphobia...went from a former bank teller to cook at a Best Western Hotel...to the now famous, Paula Deen with a cooking empire. And she found her true love and soul mate along the way! Paula Deen suffered a lot of the things on the list.... but she didn't give up... she didn't say.."oh now I'm so alone!"...she didn't say now I don't have a husband...I can't make it. She didn't say...now I don't have a job, we're going to be homeless. NO! she put on her big girl pants... realized what she loved....COOKING... and found a way to start doing what she loved. She USED WHAT SHE GOT: she had a kitchen.. she had skills... she had a desire... she had to do something because she only had $200 to her name.. she had fear of leaving her house...but that didn't stop her! Now she has become successful because of every STORM CLOUD in her life that made the sun shine a beautiful sunset of success! AND ALL THOSE CLOUDS made for the most beautiful sunset in her life every day!!!
SO today...rejoice for the clouds...they are bringing a beautiful sunset for you! Life has a beautiful sunset waiting to sparkle success in your life....let's just be thankful for the clouds that are going to make our sunset amazing!!! From your friend with cloudiness....but waiting for them to make my sunsets beautiful, your Kelly please share this with anyone that needs to hear this (I encourage you to share it on facebook and twitter...because people always ask if it's ok...it's more than OK...I want to help change hearts...so share away!)
No matter what is going on in your life:
Relationship problems, heartbreak, loss. financial troubles, feelings of hopelessness, loneliness, feeling out of contro,l family problems or whatever they case may be! Be encouraged by these stories of "storm clouds" in people's lives, that have really been beautiful sunsets of opportunity just waiting for the sun to go down to make them shine.
A single and broke mama, who started making and selling sandwiches out of her home because she suffered from Agoraphobia...went from a former bank teller to cook at a Best Western Hotel...to the now famous, Paula Deen with a cooking empire. And she found her true love and soul mate along the way! Paula Deen suffered a lot of the things on the list.... but she didn't give up... she didn't say.."oh now I'm so alone!"...she didn't say now I don't have a husband...I can't make it. She didn't say...now I don't have a job, we're going to be homeless. NO! she put on her big girl pants... realized what she loved....COOKING... and found a way to start doing what she loved. She USED WHAT SHE GOT: she had a kitchen.. she had skills... she had a desire... she had to do something because she only had $200 to her name.. she had fear of leaving her house...but that didn't stop her! Now she has become successful because of every STORM CLOUD in her life that made the sun shine a beautiful sunset of success! AND ALL THOSE CLOUDS made for the most beautiful sunset in her life every day!!!
SO today...rejoice for the clouds...they are bringing a beautiful sunset for you! Life has a beautiful sunset waiting to sparkle success in your life....let's just be thankful for the clouds that are going to make our sunset amazing!!! From your friend with cloudiness....but waiting for them to make my sunsets beautiful, your Kelly please share this with anyone that needs to hear this (I encourage you to share it on facebook and twitter...because people always ask if it's ok...it's more than OK...I want to help change hearts...so share away!)
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Emotions!
Emotions are our own, not anybody else's! (I imagine this is what our emotions look like, lots of different intensities and shades--I have no scientific evidence ha ha ha!) We all have emotions and I'm sure you are already aware of them. Our emotions are what go bananas when we don't get our "way," think that we have been cheated or short-changed in some way, are hurt, feel lonely, surge with jealousy and basically are how we react to most things in life.
Here's the bombshell. These "emotions" can be harnessed. You don't have to fly off the handle when someone has said something hurtful about or to you. You CAN and also HAVE, the freedom to CHOOSE how you will respond. I spent MANY years, blaming others for how I "had" to respond. I would blame friends who did something hurtful to me--as WHY I had to "get them back" or plot ways to hurt them just as they had done to me. This is a very emotionally based way to live. And it's also very exhausting, depressing, lonely and a scared way to live your life. Believe me, "emotionally" responding to every little thing and allowing your emotions to run wild at any given moment will leave you feeling worse than the meanest person you've ever met!
So what do we do with raging emotions? How we should respond when we are hurt? Rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed! I know it may be hard at first but with practice and determination anything is possible. If anything at least you will be less frequent with your rages! Clothes yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. You will be so much more happier and so much more productive everyday! We are all FREE to choose how we will respond! Respond with a thankful heart that you are alive and have a chance to do something great for yourself and others! Respond to others with compassion, kindness, love and forgiveness. You will see your relationships will grow stronger and you will grow happier.
So next time you are faced with a jerky person, difficult circumstances or just life not working out as you had planned...stop and think for a minute. Sometimes I have to tell myself, "Kelly, just stop it. Let's put our raging emotions on hold for a minute and ask what response be the best and make me a good person and stronger and realizing being negative never helps anything!?" That's a "tune" changer if I ever heard one! Ha ha ha! It changes my whiney, hurt, mad, "why me" type of emotional response EVERY TIME. And at the end of the day, I'm ALWAYS glad when I choose positivity over negativity! I feel better, sleep better and enjoy peace rather than being tortured by my own wild emotions. You too can become an emotional wrangler if you give it a true shot! Emotions are part of who we are, but they should never be allowed to run totally wild. I'm done with the days that my emotions ruled me, and I'm learning more everyday how I can better wrangle them into submission! Remember that emotions ALWAYS need some sort of harness to head in the right direction. And the best harness is positivity! Huge love, KELLY
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Bridal Make Up or Everyday your choice :)
Are you always a bridesmaid or maybe now the bride?!?
Second in importance to a little box with a ring....is a big box full of wedding make-up (or ANY day) perfection!
the URBAN DECAY Urban Bride "box o' wonders"...
is the perfect gift for a bride or any girl that is single-and-proud and just wants this awesome set!!!
the good you get:
• Razor Sharp Ultra-Definition Finishing Powder to diffuse lines for a flawless airbrushed look.
(I used this on set a few days ago. It's translucent so it goes on everyone from pale to dark skin!)
• Urban Decay’s best-selling original formula Eyeshadow Primer Potion (full-sized)
*Supercurl Curling Mascara to keep her eyes looking fresh. -I love this and have used this.
• Lip Junkie Lipgloss in Midnight Cowboy to give bare and lightly colored lips a sensual, come-hither shine or electrify darker lipcolor with more texture.
• All Nighter Long-Lasting Makeup Setting Spray to ensure her look stays put for 16 incredible hours.
• Marshmallow Sparkling Lickable Body Powder - I guess is more for the honeymoon. But for me, maybe I'll just pour it on top of my ice cream! ha ha
Check this deal out: each thing you get comes out to be only about $7! The whole set is $42...
awesome deal that's the same prices as drugstore make-up!
This is a beautiful deal though for any girl...ring or not!
These gift sets are a great way to save you money and getting more for your buck.
I love make up more than wedding cake....your Kelly
A crafting how to
DIY FLOWER BALL!
I love Do-It-Yourself craft projects...
so it's time to fire up your hot glue guns...
hunt down some fake flowers...
and grab some styrofoam balls...because we're gonna make some romantic fantastic flower ball decorations to bring some girly, beauty to your desk, dresser, bathroom or bookshelf!
These are adorable in little girls rooms and in big girls rooms...mine lives on my dresser!
WHAT YOU NEED:
1. Styrofoam Ball
(any size you want)
You can get these at any craft store.
2. Hot Glue Gun & Lots of Glue Sticks
I got my Zebra Print Glue Gun at Michaels Crafts by ArtMinds for like $4.99
3. Fake Flowers
(you can use a fun mixture of colors like these)
or big Peonies like these...
or you can just get a bunch of white roses like the one I have!
INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Pull off all the flower blossom from the stem
-they just pop off when you pull on them-
so you are left with a bunch of green stems that look like this.
2. Start gluing the flowers to the styrofoam ball until they cover the whole ball...
you can glue them in a circle line around the ball or just start gluing them next to each other...as long as they cover the styrofoam it doesn't matter which way you start to glue them!be careful not to burn your valuable fingertips!
AND VOILA...
you can glue them in a circle line around the ball or just start gluing them next to each other...as long as they cover the styrofoam it doesn't matter which way you start to glue them!be careful not to burn your valuable fingertips!
AND VOILA...
your very own orb of floral-girly-ness!
smokin' glue guns...Please share if you do this project! I would love to see - Kelly
Monday, May 30, 2011
Thanks Sean!
An awesome tatoo artist and artist I know from twitter is doing a portrait of myself and my husband. I will show what he has done so far. To show off his impressive talent. Sean, on a personal note I will cherish this so. I can't wait to have it in our bedroom.
Sean you have made me smile and brought joy to me for taking the time out and doing this creation for me. You are so talented! I can't thank you enough
Picture below :) Hope you guys like!
Your Friend,
Kelly
Sean you have made me smile and brought joy to me for taking the time out and doing this creation for me. You are so talented! I can't thank you enough
Picture below :) Hope you guys like!
Your Friend,
Kelly
Opportunities!
Have you visited Opportunity lately?
Opportunities come into our life all the time...and sometimes we think they are problems...
but little do we know they are opportunities in disguise!
You have to make the most of opportunities that come your way quickly. Sometimes an opportunity come into our lives, and if we don't act on it...we miss it.
Sometimes we look at our opportunities and think.."OH NO! This looks like a big mess! Like a big pile of poop! Lots of heartbreak, sadness or loss!"...
BUT really, if we'd look closer, be quiet...and not go calling everyone we know to complain about it....in that stillness you will see the opportunity!
Whether your heart feels broken because someone you love has hurt you, left you or cheated on you...
this could actually be a BIG OPPORTUNITY to get out of and away from a BAD relationship....and time to be free to find someone that would never imagine hurting you in ANY way!
Maybe you've lost your job! This is how so many success stories have begun, people had no where to go and nothing to lose but to start a business or finally go after their dream career. When you're at the bottom...sometimes it's the best place because you won't worry about falling on some branches when you're somewhere in the middle...and you will BRAVELY and FEARLESSLY go after something with URGENCY because you have to. If you were making good money at a job, you might take your time and wait too long to start!
Remember: sometimes man says "YOU'RE FIRED!"....but that's right when someone or you can say, "NOW, I can HIRE YOU/MYSELF for something even greater!"
Don't let the LAND of EXCUSES cause you to lose your map to OPPORTUNITY TOWN!
I know of more people who the world considers handicapped...that DO MORE than "capable-bodied" people ever even think of doing!
These so called "handi-capped" people don't let anything, any excuse stop them from anything.
Nick Vujicic was born without arm and legs and has accomplished more than people who have 2 more arms and legs than he needs to do anything!
Remember you have everything you need and nothing to feel bad about!
And don't worry about the "critics"...from strangers to ones you love come out of the woodwork and offer their "free opinion" about you or your situation.
People who don't dare go after anything in their own lives...have all the free time in the world to offer their opinion, criticism, and discouragement. Don't waste your time listening to them...you have a big, bright future to go after!
People always have bad things to say about someone who's doing something with their life. And it infuriates so called "highly intelligent" or educated people to see someone that isn't as "smart" or educated as they are doing greater things, inventing more amazing inventions, and being successful at anything.
Be an opportunity seeker...hunt for giant "diamonds of opportunity" in what feels like a big pile of poop that just landed in your life!
And remember:
the most beautiful flowers grow out of the most stinky, manure!
Start looking for the diamonds of hope today no matter how awful the package looks that just showed up in your life!
And remember, we are sent opportunities.....we have to take them or the opportunities are going to set sail without us!
Get out your map to OPPORTUNITY TOWN.....huge love and diamond hunting...your friend Kelly
Please feel free to pass this on, post this, share this with anyone that could use a little encouragement right now...and send a little more hope out into the world!
Monday, May 23, 2011
Hormones!
I couldn't live with out my hormones, but boy can they be downers. Tonight has been one of those days where I have just felt ugly and shitty all day. No matter how hard I tried to fix myself up, look at myself in the mirror and say I'm beautiful, or have my husbands reassurance and love telling me how beautiful I am.
Sometimes hormones just put you in a mood of despair. I usually take St. John's Wort to counteract these moods, but I have been forgetting to take them. I know it upsets hubby to see me like this, he always worries he did or said something wrong that day. But he didn't, the fact he holds me and tells me how beautiful I am really helps.
But it's like the levels our just fighting you to be sad! I'm barely ever sad or upset. I always try to look on the brighter side of life, but lord knows you can't be happy all the damn time. So I let out a big cry tonight. Which helped! Sometimes I look in the mirror and see the ugliest creature known to man.
Sometimes I look at myself and think how could anyone think I'm attractive. But ladies and gentleman I am here to tell you these are normal feelings. If there was no sadness we wouldn't know the true power of happiness.
Hormones make us soft and transform us, but they also mess with our levels. So girls the next time you are feeling way low. It may not be you necessarily. It could be your hormones playing an evil joke on you. I suggest a cry fest, and call a friend or lover to make you laugh.
I thought I'd share this, because I always get the you lead such an awesome life. You are always so happy. Yadda, Yadda, Yadda lol
I'm here to tell you..I cry at least every few weeks. And I feel ugly at least every 3 weeks lol
I love you guys - Kelly
Sometimes hormones just put you in a mood of despair. I usually take St. John's Wort to counteract these moods, but I have been forgetting to take them. I know it upsets hubby to see me like this, he always worries he did or said something wrong that day. But he didn't, the fact he holds me and tells me how beautiful I am really helps.
But it's like the levels our just fighting you to be sad! I'm barely ever sad or upset. I always try to look on the brighter side of life, but lord knows you can't be happy all the damn time. So I let out a big cry tonight. Which helped! Sometimes I look in the mirror and see the ugliest creature known to man.
Sometimes I look at myself and think how could anyone think I'm attractive. But ladies and gentleman I am here to tell you these are normal feelings. If there was no sadness we wouldn't know the true power of happiness.
Hormones make us soft and transform us, but they also mess with our levels. So girls the next time you are feeling way low. It may not be you necessarily. It could be your hormones playing an evil joke on you. I suggest a cry fest, and call a friend or lover to make you laugh.
I thought I'd share this, because I always get the you lead such an awesome life. You are always so happy. Yadda, Yadda, Yadda lol
I'm here to tell you..I cry at least every few weeks. And I feel ugly at least every 3 weeks lol
I love you guys - Kelly
Friday, May 20, 2011
Today is my anniversary!
My husband and I have been together 3 years and it's just crazy to think that. I will admit on other days it feels like we were together for 20 years! He is my best friend, lover, and yes we fight here and there...but at the end of the day we realize how important we are to each other.
It's really made me grow up and realize relationships take sacrifice, dedication, patience, understanding, forgiveness, caring, communication, and did I mention patience and forgiveness? If you love someone you must forgive. If you love someone you need to listen and hear them out, before you just argue your point. If you love someone you must sacrifice and work as a unit.
Like any couple we have had our ups and downs but the last year and a half we have been soaring high. I think it's because we both turned 29 this year, and we also realize how lonely our lives would be with out each other. I think our biggest issue was my past life in the porn industry, and he has now accepted it. Now that isn't an issue! Thank goodness!
I don't know what he has planned today, but whatever it is I will love it. Due to I know he will put his heart into it. I don't need fancy shmancy gifts or diamonds. I have never been that girl. As long as I have him by my side I'm truly happy. My life is brighter and more stable, because of him. Now when I lay in bed at night I know I only have to reach a few inches and I have him there. I know when I cry or upset I have him there to lean on.
I love my husband even more on this special day..and as I write this..I'm tearing up. GRR I'm such a girl! lol But I hope everyone has a great weekend! All my love and hope for each and every one of you - Kelly
It's really made me grow up and realize relationships take sacrifice, dedication, patience, understanding, forgiveness, caring, communication, and did I mention patience and forgiveness? If you love someone you must forgive. If you love someone you need to listen and hear them out, before you just argue your point. If you love someone you must sacrifice and work as a unit.
Like any couple we have had our ups and downs but the last year and a half we have been soaring high. I think it's because we both turned 29 this year, and we also realize how lonely our lives would be with out each other. I think our biggest issue was my past life in the porn industry, and he has now accepted it. Now that isn't an issue! Thank goodness!
I don't know what he has planned today, but whatever it is I will love it. Due to I know he will put his heart into it. I don't need fancy shmancy gifts or diamonds. I have never been that girl. As long as I have him by my side I'm truly happy. My life is brighter and more stable, because of him. Now when I lay in bed at night I know I only have to reach a few inches and I have him there. I know when I cry or upset I have him there to lean on.
I love my husband even more on this special day..and as I write this..I'm tearing up. GRR I'm such a girl! lol But I hope everyone has a great weekend! All my love and hope for each and every one of you - Kelly
Happiness is NOT a destination...
it is a way of life!
I LOVE THIS SIGN!
today is beyond busy...I should wear rollerskates to make me go faster today....huge love, Kelly
Monday, May 16, 2011
Family Ties!
Tonight we visited my hubbie's mom, because he wasn't feeling well today (what a baby lol). However, it was complicated by his mother and him having a huge fight that's a recurring argument in their lives (ack). Know, however, I am very proud of him for not blowing up (he has a short fuse) and for comforting her. They have sort of a destructive past life, due to her inability to get over the fact that his father ran out on them so early on. He was her one true love. I'm glad I can help stabilize their relationship and start a new family. I'm glad my hubby has become more aware of not blaming his mother for everything. It takes two to be a parent, and he doesn't fully understand where his mother comes from. However it's not something a child should need to understand. I'm just glad they are talking to each other calmly and admitting each others faults. And not screaming past one another. I love my mother-in-law and I love my husband. I know sometimes she has a hard time dealing with the fact that I'm a transsexual, but at the end of the day she always tells me you are so beautiful and sweet and helpful. I couldn't ask for a better women in my sons life.
So I am super sorry about the cam4 show tonight - we weren't at our best. But we all talked more tonight and are going to bed happy and a family!
Love you guys!
Kelly!
So I am super sorry about the cam4 show tonight - we weren't at our best. But we all talked more tonight and are going to bed happy and a family!
Love you guys!
Kelly!
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Flawless Skin in 5 Easy Steps!
I get asked all the time:
STEP 1 (optional)
apply a PRIMER- your skin will look smoother and your make-up will last longer
either to smooth the skin- minimize pores or fine lines
OR
to control oil and shine
*i love URBAN DECAY COMPLEXION PRIMER POTION in brightening
STEP 2
apply a foundation -all over your face and make sure to blend down onto your neck...you don't want to look like you have a "foundation-beard" ha ha
budget-beauty price: L'oreal TruMatch Super Blendable Make-Up
beauty bucks-but worth it: Laura Mercier Silk Creme Foundation
STEP 3
"CONCEAL BABY! CONCEAL!"
apply concealer to all the "hot spots" of redness or dark circles!
1. your eyelids - from lashline to brows
2. around the nostrils (a red nose is only cute on Rudolph!)
3. around the lips (to get red of the red pigment if you're apply a lip color and wants its true color to show)
4. under the eyes in a "triangle shape"
5. BONUS: down the nose and between the eye brows - to make the nose look straighter and brighten the eye and brow area.
beauty-bargainista: Revlon Photo Ready Concealer ( i lovvvvve this!)
bang for you beauty bucks: COVER FX Foundation (i use it as a concealer because it's so heavy)
STEP 4
dust powder on area that get oily
OR
that you're going to put make-up on
the nose
eyelids
chin
forehead
any translucent powder will be fine
STEP 5
THE GLOW, BABY! this is how you get your make-up to look dewy, light and glowy!
HIGHLIGHT CREAM:
i love: Pearl & Shell from MAC
or High Beam from Benefit
budget-beauty trick: use a frosted or shimmery lipstick as a highlight cream!
DAB either a shimmery powder like Silver Dusk Highlight Powder from MAC OR
a shimmery eyeshadow...onto cheekbones and down the center of the noes!
AND VOILA! PERFECT, NATURAL LOOKING DEWY, GLOWY SKIN THAT JUST MAKES YOUR FACE LOOK LIGHT AND FLAWLESS!
HOPE THIS HELPS :)
LOVE and cakey free foundation - Kelly
"how do I get perfect looking skin and foundation that doesn't look cakey or heavy, but dewy, light and natural?"...
get your foundation out and let's get started!
STEP 1 (optional)
apply a PRIMER- your skin will look smoother and your make-up will last longer
either to smooth the skin- minimize pores or fine lines
OR
to control oil and shine
*i love URBAN DECAY COMPLEXION PRIMER POTION in brightening
STEP 2
apply a foundation -all over your face and make sure to blend down onto your neck...you don't want to look like you have a "foundation-beard" ha ha
*I love:
budget-beauty price: L'oreal TruMatch Super Blendable Make-Up
beauty bucks-but worth it: Laura Mercier Silk Creme Foundation
STEP 3
"CONCEAL BABY! CONCEAL!"
apply concealer to all the "hot spots" of redness or dark circles!
1. your eyelids - from lashline to brows
2. around the nostrils (a red nose is only cute on Rudolph!)
3. around the lips (to get red of the red pigment if you're apply a lip color and wants its true color to show)
4. under the eyes in a "triangle shape"
5. BONUS: down the nose and between the eye brows - to make the nose look straighter and brighten the eye and brow area.
* i love:
beauty-bargainista: Revlon Photo Ready Concealer ( i lovvvvve this!)
bang for you beauty bucks: COVER FX Foundation (i use it as a concealer because it's so heavy)
STEP 4
dust powder on area that get oily
OR
that you're going to put make-up on
the nose
eyelids
chin
forehead
any translucent powder will be fine
STEP 5
THE GLOW, BABY! this is how you get your make-up to look dewy, light and glowy!
HIGHLIGHT CREAM:
i love: Pearl & Shell from MAC
or High Beam from Benefit
budget-beauty trick: use a frosted or shimmery lipstick as a highlight cream!
DAB either a shimmery powder like Silver Dusk Highlight Powder from MAC OR
a shimmery eyeshadow...onto cheekbones and down the center of the noes!
AND VOILA! PERFECT, NATURAL LOOKING DEWY, GLOWY SKIN THAT JUST MAKES YOUR FACE LOOK LIGHT AND FLAWLESS!
HOPE THIS HELPS :)
LOVE and cakey free foundation - Kelly
Yay for Kim Petras!
They are playing her song here in the states! I believe she is the youngest transsexual to go through the post op surgery! She is so talented and deserves this!
We should help support her dream of becoming a huge pop singer!
We should help support her dream of becoming a huge pop singer!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Tried my new hair extensions
I got my new hair extensions finally and decided to try them out! I will take better pics soon :) The dress I am wearing a fan bought me :)
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Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Why I'm Not Perfect!
I am so far from perfect...it's funny sometimes!
I've been married 2 times...
I have had to have lots of surgeries to fix me to look better...
and I am no where near the life I had imagined for myself when I was young!
ha ha ha ha
Perfection isn't real...it pretty much doesn't exist, except in how we envision things to be in our mind.
My sister once told me that my imagination is so great...nothing will live up to how great I imagined it!
ha ha ha ha ha
and if you struggle with perfection...like I do...it can be soooo frustrating!
I always worry that I didn't make the perfect decision, buy the perfect "whatever" at the lowest price...
I have realized that the most beautiful things in life are the ones with imperfections...
the most wonderful people are the ones that are far from perfect...
My mother knew that every imperfection and imperfect thing that happens to us...can be the very thing that makes us the most beautiful.
Just like a pearl...it's the little imperfection that gets turned into something beautiful.
I remember someone unkind, commented how I wasn't pretty enough or I was to skinny...and one of my friends told me, "yeah, but if they were so happy with themselves why would they go out of their way to pick on you?! There is probably jealousy and envy behind those statements."
My life may be far from perfect...things that have happened in my life have looked far from perfect...but each one...has turned into the most perfect, imperfect thing.
I love being imperfect:
- I love the fact that I'm short (I always wanted to be tall, but if I was tall I'd want to be short)
- I love that my body isn't perfect..and I don't care if I get cellulite...I'm still gonna wear a bathing suit out!
- I love that my life has been more exciting because of how "imperfect" it's been...married two times...porn...etc (ha ha ha)...
- I've never had the perfect life I thought...I had...and that's okay I wouldn't change the life I have now for anything. The people I have in my life I wouldn't change for anything
- I love that I have a step-daughter! Rather than adopting one. She is my little darling!
- I love the fact that no matter how imperfect I am - my husband still loves all of me
- I love that no matter what comes at me that isn't perfect...I know my mom is saying...you life is like a beautiful mosaic of all different colors...and no matter what you keep adding more beauty to it, through all these different little pieces of broken-ness... a one colored perfect piece would be very boring...
- I could keep going but this will turn from a blog to a novel! ha ha ha
If you feel like your life, relationship, family, body, career...
is imperfect....LISTEN TO ME
YOU ARE WONDERFUL...
YOUR LIFE IS EXCITING AND INTERESTING this way...
LET GO OF PERFECTION!!! AND embrace the beauty of imperfectness!
ONCE YOU DO - YOU WILL BE HAPPIER!!
We don't have to worry about our life not being how we want....it's work in progress...and each thing that goes "wrong"..could be the very piece that will guide us to where we're supposed to be!
incredibly imperfect...your friend Kelly!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
From start to finish...
No make up to make up - A lot of people wonder what I look like with out make up etc and so I'm baring myself to the world once again!
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Sunday, April 17, 2011
Proud to be Transsexual
You know how many people make the good and the bad lists. I am going to do this for the reasons I have always come to the conclusion why I am glad I'm a transsexual. See if you can come up with your own lists. There is of course bad reasons, but the good outweighs it for me. I find many focus too much on the negativity, and like playing the victim card. I have never been one of those types and don't ever plan on being that way. Playing the victim only weakens you, and turns people away from you. There's a point when people just don't feel sorry for you anymore. It makes them want to turn against you! Nor does it inspire anyone!! I'm a transsexual and I get annoyed with those people and the transsexuals who do that crap!
I have never liked pity either. I hate when people say "Wow, your life must of been so hard", "I'm sorry", "It must be hard being like you", and so on. Umm NO not really! GRRR!!
1) I transitioned young (age 12) it was a big decision to make. It challenged my maturity, self-awareness, confidence, and the people around me. I am thankful for this experience. It's made me more thankful for my family who supported me, the friends who stood behind me, challenged me to change people's minds, and gave me a will to be me.
I truly believe if I hadn't of transitioned at the age I did. I would of been a shell of a person. Unhappy, mad at the world, and held fear inside my very being.
I also believe if I had been born a genetic female. I wouldn't have the wisdom, confidence, or backbone I gained from being a transsexual. I probably would not think outside the box like I do now. I might be one of the people who didn't understand minorities or people who are different. I may be a brain dead wannabe like so many are today.
2) I'm happy to be different than others. Otherwise I would take this life, my friends, and normalcy for granted. I cherish the normal life I've been able to live. I cherish the friends I've made, the family who stands beside me and accepts me, and the understanding and wisdom of myself and things around me. Something I wouldn't of had otherwise.
3) It challenged my confidence giving me a backbone. A backbone that has pushed me to fight for my community. Go to high school as a girl, when kids can be the meanest. My backbone has saved my life and inspired others.
4) It showed me true cruelty, and true kindness. Something many don't see till they are older.
5) It showed me who my true alliances were and the love of a family.
6) It's given me an understanding of both sexes.
7) It's tested my patience, making me a lot harder to blow a gasket.
8) It's made me work harder for my looks, and be thankful for them when I achieved them. (many take for granted)
9) It's taught me empathy, compassion, and understanding. Something many don't have, nor will they ever have.
10) Last but not least, it's taught me to be thankful for the freedom I have to be me. We take freedom for granted.
I have never liked pity either. I hate when people say "Wow, your life must of been so hard", "I'm sorry", "It must be hard being like you", and so on. Umm NO not really! GRRR!!
1) I transitioned young (age 12) it was a big decision to make. It challenged my maturity, self-awareness, confidence, and the people around me. I am thankful for this experience. It's made me more thankful for my family who supported me, the friends who stood behind me, challenged me to change people's minds, and gave me a will to be me.
I truly believe if I hadn't of transitioned at the age I did. I would of been a shell of a person. Unhappy, mad at the world, and held fear inside my very being.
I also believe if I had been born a genetic female. I wouldn't have the wisdom, confidence, or backbone I gained from being a transsexual. I probably would not think outside the box like I do now. I might be one of the people who didn't understand minorities or people who are different. I may be a brain dead wannabe like so many are today.
2) I'm happy to be different than others. Otherwise I would take this life, my friends, and normalcy for granted. I cherish the normal life I've been able to live. I cherish the friends I've made, the family who stands beside me and accepts me, and the understanding and wisdom of myself and things around me. Something I wouldn't of had otherwise.
3) It challenged my confidence giving me a backbone. A backbone that has pushed me to fight for my community. Go to high school as a girl, when kids can be the meanest. My backbone has saved my life and inspired others.
4) It showed me true cruelty, and true kindness. Something many don't see till they are older.
5) It showed me who my true alliances were and the love of a family.
6) It's given me an understanding of both sexes.
7) It's tested my patience, making me a lot harder to blow a gasket.
8) It's made me work harder for my looks, and be thankful for them when I achieved them. (many take for granted)
9) It's taught me empathy, compassion, and understanding. Something many don't have, nor will they ever have.
10) Last but not least, it's taught me to be thankful for the freedom I have to be me. We take freedom for granted.
Friday, April 15, 2011
RIP Bridget
Something I wrote for Bridget...
Thank goodness for the internet! Sometimes you come across a kindred spirit. Who is just a beautiful person inside and out. That you would of never of known with out the invention of this thing called the internet.
I met Bridget just that way a few years ago on a message board. She was funny, bright, and attractive. I don't think Bridget ever really knew this though. A young transitioner always looking to better her looks. She was already to the point of passability with out any surgery.
She was going to college and living a normal every day girl life. We spoke more in chatrooms and we would laugh and goof off. Just have a barrel of laughs. Her personality was sweet, caring, and comedic. A little bit of a rambler that came across as cute. But always looking for advice from other girls to look better. When in my opinion the girls she was asking, couldn't touch her in looks or personality.
I think many girls are like this - I would tell her every time we spoke "Not to go overboard and she already looks great". She would tell me her idol or wanted to like Audrina Partridge. She recently made a consultation appointment with Dr. Zukowski to gain this goal in her life. I was supposed to meet with her while she was here, but my husband and I got busy so I couldn't make it. She was coming back to see Dr. Zukowski again and stay a few weeks she said! Which would of been awesome to of seen her then. I'm so upset I didn't get a chance to actually meet her. If I had of known I would of gone out of my way to meet this lovely angel.
Bridget, would confide in me about personal problems and other things going on in her life. However I never thought it was anything she couldn't handle. She always came off bright and bubbly. So to know that she decided to take her own life is just shocking and upsetting to me. It just proves that there needs to be more outreach between trans-person to trans-person. She was such a young girl with so much promise and life to lead. I thought when I spoke to her. I made her see that, or at least tried to.
Bridget, I sincerely loved you little girl. Rather we met in person or not. I cherished our talks, our times in chat. It's really the only reason I came into the chatroom to converse with you and of course our friend Ed. I will miss you always, and think of you always. I will push myself more to do the radio show to outreach with transsexuals. You told me it was good I was doing this, and you supported and listened to my radio show. How I wish this didn't happen and you were coming back to Chicago so we could have a day of shopping and talking about your plans for the future.
To know Bridget in my opinion - Was a Gift...She was a bright light that made you laugh.
I wish she had of known how wonderful many of us who knew her thought she was.
I wish she had known that she had so many more wonderful years ahead of her and she was only beginning.
Let's Remember Bridget as the beautiful Angel she was, not for the pain she had inside or the loss of her. Let's celebrate her life and what she was so maybe somehow or someway she can finally feel and KNOW how wonderful and beautiful she really was!
I love you Bridget!!
Thank goodness for the internet! Sometimes you come across a kindred spirit. Who is just a beautiful person inside and out. That you would of never of known with out the invention of this thing called the internet.
I met Bridget just that way a few years ago on a message board. She was funny, bright, and attractive. I don't think Bridget ever really knew this though. A young transitioner always looking to better her looks. She was already to the point of passability with out any surgery.
She was going to college and living a normal every day girl life. We spoke more in chatrooms and we would laugh and goof off. Just have a barrel of laughs. Her personality was sweet, caring, and comedic. A little bit of a rambler that came across as cute. But always looking for advice from other girls to look better. When in my opinion the girls she was asking, couldn't touch her in looks or personality.
I think many girls are like this - I would tell her every time we spoke "Not to go overboard and she already looks great". She would tell me her idol or wanted to like Audrina Partridge. She recently made a consultation appointment with Dr. Zukowski to gain this goal in her life. I was supposed to meet with her while she was here, but my husband and I got busy so I couldn't make it. She was coming back to see Dr. Zukowski again and stay a few weeks she said! Which would of been awesome to of seen her then. I'm so upset I didn't get a chance to actually meet her. If I had of known I would of gone out of my way to meet this lovely angel.
Bridget, would confide in me about personal problems and other things going on in her life. However I never thought it was anything she couldn't handle. She always came off bright and bubbly. So to know that she decided to take her own life is just shocking and upsetting to me. It just proves that there needs to be more outreach between trans-person to trans-person. She was such a young girl with so much promise and life to lead. I thought when I spoke to her. I made her see that, or at least tried to.
Bridget, I sincerely loved you little girl. Rather we met in person or not. I cherished our talks, our times in chat. It's really the only reason I came into the chatroom to converse with you and of course our friend Ed. I will miss you always, and think of you always. I will push myself more to do the radio show to outreach with transsexuals. You told me it was good I was doing this, and you supported and listened to my radio show. How I wish this didn't happen and you were coming back to Chicago so we could have a day of shopping and talking about your plans for the future.
To know Bridget in my opinion - Was a Gift...She was a bright light that made you laugh.
I wish she had of known how wonderful many of us who knew her thought she was.
I wish she had known that she had so many more wonderful years ahead of her and she was only beginning.
Let's Remember Bridget as the beautiful Angel she was, not for the pain she had inside or the loss of her. Let's celebrate her life and what she was so maybe somehow or someway she can finally feel and KNOW how wonderful and beautiful she really was!
I love you Bridget!!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Dreams!
Don't be scared of your dreams or dreaming...
some people are so scared of failure that they never try...
but the only way to make it happen is to TRY!
Not one successful person will say they didn't try sweethearts!
Your dreams are there for a reason...no one else will create or do what you will. It's like if you asked two people to paint a picture of the same tree..each one would do it entirely different. That's the beauty of each one of us being made unique, with fingerprints and "talent-prints"...that only belong to each of us. No one...NOT ONE, other person has your "talent-prints"....your
"dream-prints"!!!
The world needs you to flourish and blossom your dreams...remember...
YOU ARE THE ONLY GARDENER OF YOUR DREAM GARDEN!!
Make SURE to:
Water your garden...
(Discipline yourself and encourage and fill your dream garden with positive thoughts.)
Pull the weeds...
(the negative thoughts from you and everyone else!)
And last but not least Fertilize...
(encourage yourself daily...despite what anyone else tells you! Tell yourself...I am special, no one else has what I've got! The world needs me)
"You are more beautiful than you know...more talented than you think...and more loved than you can imagine!"- Kelly (my words to each one of you!)
You can do it! Be like a speeding train that no one can stop...headed straight for dream town!
AND one last bit of wisdom my mama told me: "Desire without discipline leads no where!"
so discipline yourself to do something about that precious dream of yours, that keeps knocking at your heart!
You put that dream in the suitcases of your heart...it's time to unpack those dreams and show them to the world!!!
This blog was typed with love and so much encouragement for you...please feel all that I filled it with for you!!! Huge love you wonderful, precious dreamers, you!
You can pass this message on to anyone else that has a "dream garden" that could use this little bit of "dream grower"!
Your Friend - Kelly
some people are so scared of failure that they never try...
but the only way to make it happen is to TRY!
Not one successful person will say they didn't try sweethearts!
Your dreams are there for a reason...no one else will create or do what you will. It's like if you asked two people to paint a picture of the same tree..each one would do it entirely different. That's the beauty of each one of us being made unique, with fingerprints and "talent-prints"...that only belong to each of us. No one...NOT ONE, other person has your "talent-prints"....your
"dream-prints"!!!
The world needs you to flourish and blossom your dreams...remember...
YOU ARE THE ONLY GARDENER OF YOUR DREAM GARDEN!!
Make SURE to:
Water your garden...
(Discipline yourself and encourage and fill your dream garden with positive thoughts.)
Pull the weeds...
(the negative thoughts from you and everyone else!)
And last but not least Fertilize...
(encourage yourself daily...despite what anyone else tells you! Tell yourself...I am special, no one else has what I've got! The world needs me)
"You are more beautiful than you know...more talented than you think...and more loved than you can imagine!"- Kelly (my words to each one of you!)
You can do it! Be like a speeding train that no one can stop...headed straight for dream town!
AND one last bit of wisdom my mama told me: "Desire without discipline leads no where!"
so discipline yourself to do something about that precious dream of yours, that keeps knocking at your heart!
You put that dream in the suitcases of your heart...it's time to unpack those dreams and show them to the world!!!
This blog was typed with love and so much encouragement for you...please feel all that I filled it with for you!!! Huge love you wonderful, precious dreamers, you!
You can pass this message on to anyone else that has a "dream garden" that could use this little bit of "dream grower"!
Your Friend - Kelly
Let the tears fall!
I was eating lunch today...and even as my friend was making a joke that made me laugh...a song came on by Bette Midler...and "safely hidden" from my friend on the phone...tears slipped down my face, as I listened to the song ...and I remember being not even in my teen years, and her saying this is our song and whenever you hear it think of your mommy...my heart just hurt. And I wanted to go back to that time again...I remember shopping with my mom that day for school clothes (the first year I lived as a girl age 12)....
Last night, I checked my phone to see a text from my sister about my mom...and
this song...in combination with some other things going on in my life...made tears fall like rain...but hopefully it washed my heart a little...
Something my momma used to say when she was alive...
"Those who sow (work) in tears..shall reap (take in, receive) in joy!"...this was like the biggest hug to my spirit...
We get these thoughts that try to discourage us...break our spirit...steal our joy....
and we MUST...must....be diligent and courageous in our thinking...not letting these pains and hurts of life...try to stop us...and kidnap our joy...
it never fails...as soon as you start working hard for something..going after your dream...trying to quit a bad habit...repairing an emotional wound....
it seems as if a sign that says "please attack me...make this harder than it is"...comes on...and next thing you know your doubting your ability and your strength...
I cried today a lot....and as no one answered their phone to talk with my "lonely" little self...I had no options left but to listen to a cd....I put in a cd of mine....and the voice boomed through the speakers right to my heart....and made me feel hope again..it was like it was saying...
NEVER GIVE UP!!!! Never let your "down" thoughts keep you down....
if you are hurting.....just know every tear is precious....and it is most definitely watering the beautiful flowers of blessings that are just waiting to spring up!!!
huge, huge love from my heart to you......and please feel the hug I'm sending too....I know I could always use an extra "hug though"......
Your Friend, Kelly
Last night, I checked my phone to see a text from my sister about my mom...and
this song...in combination with some other things going on in my life...made tears fall like rain...but hopefully it washed my heart a little...
Something my momma used to say when she was alive...
"Those who sow (work) in tears..shall reap (take in, receive) in joy!"...this was like the biggest hug to my spirit...
We get these thoughts that try to discourage us...break our spirit...steal our joy....
and we MUST...must....be diligent and courageous in our thinking...not letting these pains and hurts of life...try to stop us...and kidnap our joy...
it never fails...as soon as you start working hard for something..going after your dream...trying to quit a bad habit...repairing an emotional wound....
it seems as if a sign that says "please attack me...make this harder than it is"...comes on...and next thing you know your doubting your ability and your strength...
I cried today a lot....and as no one answered their phone to talk with my "lonely" little self...I had no options left but to listen to a cd....I put in a cd of mine....and the voice boomed through the speakers right to my heart....and made me feel hope again..it was like it was saying...
NEVER GIVE UP!!!! Never let your "down" thoughts keep you down....
if you are hurting.....just know every tear is precious....and it is most definitely watering the beautiful flowers of blessings that are just waiting to spring up!!!
huge, huge love from my heart to you......and please feel the hug I'm sending too....I know I could always use an extra "hug though"......
Your Friend, Kelly
Sunday, April 10, 2011
You should not be happy!
Every single one of us has been depressed, sad, hurt, hopeless...
Whether you are sad over a relationship, the lack of a relationship, no job, not the job you want, no money, huge bills, you're frustrated with your life, your family...
You should not be happy!
This probably sounds weird coming from me...who seems eternally happy...so happy, that some people have accused me of being fake! They couldn't figure out how someone could be happy all the time!
And the truth is, I'm not happy all the time.
Happiness is based on some thing or event, that MAKES you FEEL happy. (It makes me happy when someone hugs me or says something nice to me....those are my personal examples....)...but JOY is really what I have. Joy is what's in your heart no matter what is going on around you...
I have been through some less than wonderful things in my life, but I have been joyful during these...I've been able to smile, laugh, and be joyfully "happy" during these times...
Not a lot of people have joy in their hearts...and happiness is too wishy-washy to depend on...
If someone doesn't make us happy, we're sad, if nothing exciting or hopeful happens, we're sad...if someone hurts our feelings, we're sad...but JOY is something that we experience in our hearts...that isn't dependent on outside circumstances...
People ask me, "how are you so happy?"....And I answer my mom gave me/taught me the meaning of joy in my life. If you don't agree with me, that's totally fine....if you do, that's awesome...I just wanted the share the reason that I have joy in my life. Joy is what has always gotten me through everything!
Here's one thing that I heard yesterday, that was so great to let sink into my heart.
Be joyful always; give thanks in all circumstances!
Have the most joyfully day!!! Huge love from my heart to yours, and as my grama used to sign her letters: "JOYFULLY", Kelly
Whether you are sad over a relationship, the lack of a relationship, no job, not the job you want, no money, huge bills, you're frustrated with your life, your family...
You should not be happy!
This probably sounds weird coming from me...who seems eternally happy...so happy, that some people have accused me of being fake! They couldn't figure out how someone could be happy all the time!
And the truth is, I'm not happy all the time.
Happiness is based on some thing or event, that MAKES you FEEL happy. (It makes me happy when someone hugs me or says something nice to me....those are my personal examples....)...but JOY is really what I have. Joy is what's in your heart no matter what is going on around you...
I have been through some less than wonderful things in my life, but I have been joyful during these...I've been able to smile, laugh, and be joyfully "happy" during these times...
Not a lot of people have joy in their hearts...and happiness is too wishy-washy to depend on...
If someone doesn't make us happy, we're sad, if nothing exciting or hopeful happens, we're sad...if someone hurts our feelings, we're sad...but JOY is something that we experience in our hearts...that isn't dependent on outside circumstances...
People ask me, "how are you so happy?"....And I answer my mom gave me/taught me the meaning of joy in my life. If you don't agree with me, that's totally fine....if you do, that's awesome...I just wanted the share the reason that I have joy in my life. Joy is what has always gotten me through everything!
Here's one thing that I heard yesterday, that was so great to let sink into my heart.
Be joyful always; give thanks in all circumstances!
Have the most joyfully day!!! Huge love from my heart to yours, and as my grama used to sign her letters: "JOYFULLY", Kelly
Saturday, April 9, 2011
PUT YOUR CART AWAY :P
Live a better life...by doing small things that other people don't...
like putting your shopping cart back....picking up the hanger that fell off as you look for the right size pants....
I was at Forever 21 (a cheap & trendy clothing store)...and I was dropping hangers of pants on the floor...
and me...who worked in a clothing store, many moons ago (at a Victoria's Secret, TJ MAXX)...would hate it when people would knock stuff off, and not even have the decency to pick it up- it was their fault it fell! ha ha ha
So as I picked up all the clothes I dropped...the sales girl was amazed AND appreciative...she said, "oh thank you so much! Nobody picks up anything usually!"...
The little things like this, are what make our character...
even if no one is looking, I put my shopping cart back in the shopping cart "cage"...(and heck, you'll burn a few extra calories! ha ha ha)...
When you go the extra mile with the small things...in life...you'll be amazed at the "big" changes you'll start to notice in life...
after all, it's the little things that matter...and help make the big things amazing!
huge love and remember to put your carts back! ha ha ha ha
Kelly
the cart girl
like putting your shopping cart back....picking up the hanger that fell off as you look for the right size pants....
I was at Forever 21 (a cheap & trendy clothing store)...and I was dropping hangers of pants on the floor...
and me...who worked in a clothing store, many moons ago (at a Victoria's Secret, TJ MAXX)...would hate it when people would knock stuff off, and not even have the decency to pick it up- it was their fault it fell! ha ha ha
So as I picked up all the clothes I dropped...the sales girl was amazed AND appreciative...she said, "oh thank you so much! Nobody picks up anything usually!"...
The little things like this, are what make our character...
even if no one is looking, I put my shopping cart back in the shopping cart "cage"...(and heck, you'll burn a few extra calories! ha ha ha)...
When you go the extra mile with the small things...in life...you'll be amazed at the "big" changes you'll start to notice in life...
after all, it's the little things that matter...and help make the big things amazing!
huge love and remember to put your carts back! ha ha ha ha
Kelly
the cart girl
Monday, March 21, 2011
Expensive Cosmetics Made Cheap!
Face Primer -
In a container mix 3 teaspoons of Aloe Vera, 3 teaspoons of moisturizer then MIX IT - then add some of your choice of foundation till it's pigmented... DONE - you have yourself a great primer before you put on your concealer/foundation
Eyeshadow Primer -
In a container mix 1 part body butter and 1 part concealer of your choice...mix well with a toothpick! Abracadabra a great Eyeshadow primer!
Lip Gloss -
There are two ways to make lip gloss!
1) In a container mix vaseline and the eyeshadow/blush flakes of your choice till it gets the pigment you want... You only use the flakes from when your brush it...
2) Melt some of your fav lipstick that are leftover and mix it with some vaseline...BAM lipgloss!
Cream Eyeshadow -
In a container mix face moisturizer and the eyeshadow flakes of your choice and mix mix mix - wallah cream eyeshadow!
Eye Make Up Remover -
Take a container and using 50/50 of olive oil and witch hazel ( I like using more witch hazel than olive oil) shake it - then take a cotton ball and wash that eyeshadow off girls!
Make-up/eye make-up Remover -
This can wash off all your make up! Take 3 teaspoons of vaseline - 3 teaspoons of aloe vera - 4 drops of lavender oil MIX MIX MIX - and then take a napkin/kleenex/papertowel and dip it in the mix and get that MAKE UP OFF!!
I hope this helps - I will post more make up tips later!! Your Friend, Kelly
In a container mix 3 teaspoons of Aloe Vera, 3 teaspoons of moisturizer then MIX IT - then add some of your choice of foundation till it's pigmented... DONE - you have yourself a great primer before you put on your concealer/foundation
Eyeshadow Primer -
In a container mix 1 part body butter and 1 part concealer of your choice...mix well with a toothpick! Abracadabra a great Eyeshadow primer!
Lip Gloss -
There are two ways to make lip gloss!
1) In a container mix vaseline and the eyeshadow/blush flakes of your choice till it gets the pigment you want... You only use the flakes from when your brush it...
2) Melt some of your fav lipstick that are leftover and mix it with some vaseline...BAM lipgloss!
Cream Eyeshadow -
In a container mix face moisturizer and the eyeshadow flakes of your choice and mix mix mix - wallah cream eyeshadow!
Eye Make Up Remover -
Take a container and using 50/50 of olive oil and witch hazel ( I like using more witch hazel than olive oil) shake it - then take a cotton ball and wash that eyeshadow off girls!
Make-up/eye make-up Remover -
This can wash off all your make up! Take 3 teaspoons of vaseline - 3 teaspoons of aloe vera - 4 drops of lavender oil MIX MIX MIX - and then take a napkin/kleenex/papertowel and dip it in the mix and get that MAKE UP OFF!!
I hope this helps - I will post more make up tips later!! Your Friend, Kelly
Saturday, March 19, 2011
My Resolutions!
So a few things that I am changing in my life...I am 28 now..I know that's like 80 in tranny years! Shut UP!! But I realize as I get older I need to take better care of my body and start working out... ( I NEVER WORKED OUT - TILL NOW!). I mean I took 12 years of dance and 8 years of gymnastics, but that was more a passion. It didn't feel like I was working OUT!
I go to the gym now quite regularly, and still feel like a hamster on atreadmill. BUT I'm doing it! I still do my dance work out, but I have added stairs, treadmill, and the ball to my work out routine! I want to keep my tummy toned and I don't want to be SAGGY..so I know this is my only choice!
Now I was the girl that could eat anything and I mean anything unhealthy! I loved unhealthy food (still do) but I have also realized I have to change my diet. Then have just ONE cheat day a week! Instead of every day! LMAO!! I know with age comes that "POT BELLY" and I don't want it! I look at my sister who is 34 and four years ago she was skinny and didn't have a double chin, and now she has a double chin and thicker..(not fat) just has a ("pot belly") and I don't want that to happen to me! So guys I'm changing my diet! I have already started! I have been doing really well! My hubby is a health nut so he has been so happy with my choice. WE get in less petty arguments about food intake!
On top of that I started taking vitamins again! You don't always get what you need out of food intake, so taking vitamins definitely helps! I'm currently taking Vitamins E, D, C, b12, collagen, St. John's wort, and fish oil and I am already feeling more energetic and healthier!
I'm gonna try my damnedest to try to maintain this to make it a HABIT!
My second resolution is writing in my blog everyday! Which so far I have.. www.secretkelly.com I have even written three blog entries in one day! I have been lazy and just let it sit there, and got a lot of complaints from fans. I don't like disappointing my fans, so I am going to change that!
I am going to try to stay positive and productive and HEALTHY with lots of exercise! If you guys would like to join me let me know! Or type your own resolution in below!! And try to stick to it!
Your friend, Kelly
P.S. So for snacks I have implemented Jamba Juice into my regimen - I love the Strawberry Swirl! My husband likes the wheat grass he says it's very good for you! He made me drink it with him..let me tell you it tastes how it's supposed to lol! If you ever been outside while someone is mowing their yawn, and the taste gets in your mouth...thats exactly what it tastes like! Absolutely disgusting..NEVER AGAIN! I will stick to smoothies!
A video of him drinking this crap!
http://www.twitvid.com/QQG9U
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